TELE-SAUR-TISE!!! (((:

I ain't going to ask ever again.

2011-10-22T10:10:00.001+08:00

What Am I to do now? All I did was ask. & they have to beat about the bush and be 'secretive' about it. Was it even wrong to ask in the first place? I'm not even forcing. I don't know why but I feel that they are angry with me because of what I did.
Wasn't angry if they won't be going. I was angry because she had to be so secretive. she had to write on his paper to prolly ask if he's going or not. Then when I saw, she erased it off. What is that supposed to mean?
I'm not a fool to be fooled by you. I don't like it. Just say what's in your mind. I won't ask you to stay. Because it's your choice. & now you're thinking I can't take jokes? Far from that.
You remember you ever told me you'll do come back and study harder? Okay, still it's your choice. I'm just reminding you. It was a good intention. Not more than that. If you can't see it, then prolly, I've to stop trying and care more about myself. I've to start caring, loving, pitying myself more. Selfish to myself. So now, everything has to be me, me, me, me, then you. No more you, you, you, you, you, then me. I tried but since you find it as a chore, I'm withdrawing myself. In this situation no one is in the wrong or right. No bad or good guy.

I'm like that when I'm angry. I don't know how to express it well with words, except through actions. About the twitter thing, yes, I did that because I do act rashly when I'm angry. But, hey, at least you know what I'm feeling right? Like you said- twitter helps me to know what one is thinking and feeling.
Don't be guilty because you can't go for lesson. Because I didn't do anything to make you feel guilty. & of course, you don't have to do things you don't like just to satisfy my pleasure. Because it's a waste of everyone's time and effort. Do what you like, not what I or others like.
From then on, I'm never going to ask you ever again. It's all up to you.

Camp baby

2011-09-21T20:25:00.001+08:00

Camp was good! Awesome. Met new friends (: kessy, pearly, yap, irfan, wan, Eddie, QS, Andy. Camp was good too. Knew some of lisdah's group member. Like Jeffrey, affendi. Zul? Okay okay enough. My instructor was red.
I had lots of fun. I'm lazy to type out what we did but the basics are high elements, city race, sing song, camp fire fashion show hahaha. Damn good. Made roller coaster.

Beautiful

2011-09-15T20:57:00.001+08:00

You are beautiful, no matter why they say.

Thoughts of you

2011-09-15T20:48:00.001+08:00

Awesome day

2011-09-15T20:47:00.001+08:00

Hello! Yesterday was an awesome day. Went to meet up with Lisdah first. Went to tampines mall to get some stuff. Then to tampines 1. An hour later, Harith reached. Went to the mosque. Omg, the rain was so heavy that we were wet even after standing at the bus stop. When the rain stops for awhile, we run and went across. There goes my Birkenstock. Wetttt. After that, we went back to tampines interchange to meet up with Dzul. Off we go to karlid's. Izwan and Tasha and selva didn't come ): gave them to try the muffins I baked (: good feedbacks :B
Had mcspicy from macs. Turned around in karlid's sofa. Watched some movies for few minutes. Because most of it has no sound. Harith left first at 1615. Ehem ehem. Then Lisdah left at 1650. So Dzul, Karlid and I watched Scott pilgrim vs the world. AWESOME MOVIE! Superb! Love it so much. Hahahahahahaha. After that Karlid went to bathe, and off we go! Dzul and I are going back. Whereas Karlid, his sister and his sister's boyfriend are heading to town to meet some friends. Got on the same train. & we took pictures! Hehehehe.

Overall, had a great day. Thank you Karlid for having us over again! Will come again next time with my pillow (:

Mom

2011-09-15T20:41:00.001+08:00

Today is my mom's birthday! Had Seoul garden. Walk around. Shop a little. Then bak home (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! love you lots <3

Karlid imin

2011-08-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

I dedicate this post to Karlid Imin.

Karlid, I don't know what you're going through in life right now. But I'm going to tell you this- you're not alone.

We all still LOVE you. I love you many many too. Heh. <3

Every time I read your tweets, I feel you. I never knew what to say to you to make you feel better. I cannot tell you not to be sad. I cannot stop you from crying.

I know this is going to be tough for you. Be strong (: & my, I'm so glad that you're coming to school more often now. Stay that way okay? Remember we have already sign a two years contract ^^

This is your first year celebrating hari raya without your mom. It doesn't matter as long as your thoughts and prayers are still with her. For now, every little things you did, you'll be reminded of her. Time heals it all. It can take you few years; it's okay. You'll get there.

You know, you can always talk to me if you're feeling sad and all. I'm just one call away. One SMS away. One seat away. 25 mrt stations away. I promise to listen and lend you a shoulder to cry on (: I'll not say a single thing and just listen, okay? I know you need that.

I admire how strong you can be in front of all of us. I gotta learn from you then. Be strong okay? Remember to smile okay? (:
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

Do you remember?

2011-07-25T23:38:00.000+08:00

Geez, do you still remember me? No?
It seems like I've not had a proper talk with you for such a long time ): yes, we are all very busy. I know. I'm busy too. When you replied my text, I didn't. My bad.

So many things to say to you but so little time. So near yet so far. I'll just wait. Wait and see. Wait and see if you remember you had a friend called amirah. 11 more days.
Signing off. ):

I caught you by my mouth :*

Manners

2011-06-26T12:25:00.001+08:00

I've not updated for way too long. Today I'll talk about manners.
Do you laugh at someone's misfortune? Do you laugh when someone's parents die? Do you practice sensitivity in your heart? No? Then, I swear to god your manners is seven feet deep down your grave. & I suggest you need some manners lesson from me. Next time, when one of your parent dies, I'm going to laugh in your fucking face! That's what I called funny. Anything concerning about my family- I'd hate you to the bones if you ever mention them. Especially if you say it behind me and I found out. I'll bring my hatred to my grave.
_|_ _|_

I caught you by my mouth :*

Karlid

2011-05-21T16:05:00.001+08:00

HELLO KARLID! I know you're reading this because I asked you to. Sorry for taking so long to put this up.
Karlid, I know life's playing a joke on you for now. But, I like how you handle them well (: not everyone can do that. I'm one of them.

Karlid, I know it's tough for you now. Really, no one knows how it feels like to be in your shoes. So, I can't tell you to take it easy/ relax and not to be too upset. Come on, who are we kidding? How can we not be upset when things have turned out this way. Be upset all you want, but, do take good care of yourself. There are others who still care for you.

Probably, I can feel you. I've been in this, maybe worst. I don't know what to do and feel. It's like, everybody wants us to forget about everything fast and be happy again but, just can't. Takes time.

You're a happy boy. Hopefully everything will go well for you. You know you have tashah, yuvi, lisdah, izwan, Hannah, your sister and me (:

I seriously forgot what I wanted to type. This is not even half of what I wanted to say. Anyway, feeling better today? Your mom? (:

See you in school okay? Don't quit school okay? For your mom (:

I read your tweets and tumblr. I wish I can feel you and comfort you but I ain't good in words. All I can do I listen. Hopefully, that might help a little.

'You can't change what's done. It's better to just move on.'

I caught you by my mouth :*

Happy mother's day (:

2011-05-08T11:28:00.000+08:00

Happy mother's day to all the mothers in the world. You only have ONE important lady in your whole life. The one who carries you around in her womb for nine months and deliver you to this world no matter how painful it is.

To my mom,
You are a mother and a father to me. I don't have to judge how great or bad you are. In my eyes, you are amazing. You're a tough and brave lady. You braced yourself to live everyday for us. Put up a strong front when we all know your heart inside is broken into million pieces after my dad left. But, you're too proud to show it all. You pretends you're okay, when you're not. I've seen and heard you cry on numerous occasion. Broke my heart even if I pretend nothing happened. You thought you had lost your listening ears. She forgot she has us. We are ready to hear them. We are ready to listen to her whine. Pour it all out. Stress? Yes, You're ultimately stress. We just can't hate you after all you had done. I listened to you whine to me at times. I can't say anything. Not because I'm saving anyone's ass, but I just don't know what to say to make her feel good. You might think I'm ignoring you. Fact is, I've listened too much that my heart really aches. I worry for you. For myself. Can't afford to lose another one at this point of time when I needed you most. Always, you will say- what if one day I'm not around. WHAT IF this and that. Sigh. My mouth went really heavy when she say all that. What did you expect me to answer back?
I love you mom. I don't know how to say it or express it well. But you know, I've given you all my love. Though it's not enough. All the heart aches and pain in your chest, the tears you've dropped and the wrinkles that was made more obvious to everyone, I'm deeply and truly sorry. I apologize. I tried to be there for you all the time. & still trying. I know it's not enough. Try to be the best in your eye. I love you. From the deepest corner of my heart. Appreciating you more. Loving you more.

Yours sincerely,
your daughter

"A mother understands what a child does not say."

I'm baaaaaaack!

2011-05-07T11:27:00.000+08:00

So how's school for everyone? We are going in the fourth week already. I'll tell you about mine.

School has been good to me. Really. Only for the first few weeks that I feel like plastic bag; trash. I had a hard time- VERY, to fit in. I even sent a mass SMS to this four people whom I always mix with in class apologizing for acting like I'm-too-cool-for-you-guys attitude. Fact is, I'm not those who fit in new environment real fast. Everywhere also the same. Sometimes I don't even have anyone talking to me for as long as three months.
But this class really didn't make any initiative to make new friends. On the first day, I made (sort of) two new friends, izwan and lisdah. On the second day, Tasha, Vanessa, and corina. On the third day, no one at all.
Okay, so on the first three days was orientation. Could it get any worse? Tell me about it. I talked to this guy called Dzul on the first day and got ignored. I didn't talk to him again after two weeks. And then on the second day was like 'sports day' and I accidentally bumped into a guy (his face is it) behind me. NOT WITH MY BUTT. That guy is karlid. I didn't realized It was him until he told me. & on the first day we played a stupid game & he's in my group. I didn't even take note because I don't really care. Until, I realized everyone has at least one friend to hang around with. Sad right? And my mum and sister keeps bugging me to make friends. Oh yeah, friends too.
I have one thing to confess- MY CLASS ARE NO ANGELS! I thought they are the quiet innocent one but NO! but really, this class ain't as bad. Reminds me of my sec four time.
Slowly, the secondary friends I mix with in the first week, go their own way. Different breaks, school timing and stuff. So, I had no choice but to finally open my mouth and talk so I could make new friends (:
Oh, and a guy in my class wouldn't talk until recently. All he does was- nod his head, shake his head and shrug his shoulder. He's harith. He's like another danial from my secondary school.
& now I got to tell you, I can't wait for school to start everyday. I miss them already (: <3
& I miss my cliques!
To my friend, Andrew Ong, I'm still going to apologize. But if you choose not to talk to me anymore, then fine. I respect your decision. Afterall, it's my fault. I don't blame you at all. But I still want to share with you about my new school experience. Let time tell. Hope to hear from you soon! (:

There are three amirah-s in the class. Annoying, yes. Because when they say amirah, we have to go like- which amirah? Okay, so that's about it!
Can't wait for Monday! S&W and floorball (: finally I'm meeting my floorball mates! See you! (:

I caught you by my mouth :*

Hmmm

2011-04-28T22:30:00.000+08:00

Seems like I'm not needed and wanted in thy group anymore. Why do I still go with them then? They are like among themselves and I'm the odd one out who has no partner and not talking. It's like k is with t, and, L is with I. So you tell me now, do I even fit in there? Sigh. Then L let them view her wall except me :/ how pathetic can I be? Such a loser. Probably this is my retribution for bastard-ing my own friend previously. But, if you must know, I really did it put of anger and I've apologized. No point explaining or anything. It makes no sense if he still thinks that way. And not caring about anything. I sincerely apologized. But this new environment and friends and clique. Will I even be able to connect with them? Fit in? I don't know. Time will tell. Should I start talking to my old friend again?
This is hard. When you talk too much people hates you.when people don't talk, it is also a problem. )))))':

I caught you by my mouth :*

Fourth year

2011-04-15T22:26:00.001+08:00

160407, the date I'll never forget. Every year, on this date, I'll look at my mom and see her solemn face. You wouldn't know or understand. This date is more important than anything else. Why. I'm still wondering why does my dad had to leave us so fast. I promised to continue the story a year ago. I'll let it pass. There are too many things to be said. I'll just know it myself. I don't need anyone's sympathy. No need for that.

Dad, if you should know we all miss you! <3 it has been four years since we last talk. I've started school for five days now. Wonder what it's like if you're still around. I love you dad! (: <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

Baby baby baby ooooh

2011-04-10T22:05:00.001+08:00

Oh my, how long ago was my last entry? Have been going out
ALOT since I stopped working last Sunday. But one week is short ): & I'm starting school tomorrow. Welcome to new environment amirah! This is life!

I miss _____ <3 sigh. What is wrong with me. Nothing? I don't know. It feels really empty inside, somehow.

Anyway, I don't know if I'm ready for all these new challenges. New setback? New environment, new school, new friends and everything. What will happen after today? Will it be good or bad? I don't know.
I wish I could say it all now but I can't.

Anyway, I'm changing job. I've thought it through. I can't go another day being treated like a dog there. & there's another reason. Let's just say, it's a secret between me and my soul. Hopefully this new job I'm going to start in few months time will turn out good (:

I love you&, I miss you <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

1 camera 2 batteries 3rd day of the week 4 of us & tons of memories

2011-03-31T12:41:00.003+08:00

HELLO! IT'S PARTY TIME!!!!!!!!!

had lots of fun yesterday. it's really a day to remember. sky is so blue. sun is shining so brightly. when i see their pretty face, i feel so great!

300311, is really a memorable day. had lots of fun, took tons of pictures although it's an epic fail. we had a heart to heart talk. it was great after not meeting for so long. just look at their faces (:

anyway, three more days before i'm stopping work. i feel really miserable because that certain someone whom i want to see before leaving the place for few months will not be working till next week. still thinking of way to meet up. ice-cream ain't working isn't it? ): why why why?

i love you, & i need you

& so now i've to ask someone to plan it! yes, before school starts. i hope he will help :D

does he feel the same way as i do? was it just me? i don't know.

will continue next time. see you.

HELLO

2011-03-19T00:53:00.003+08:00

right, it has been so long since i wrote something meaningful here. i'm so fed up with work life. not that i hate working, just certain people make it bad for me. i'll just know them myself. glad that two new part-timers always make it great for me. it has to be the double J, jan and joey. it has been so long since great people come to work with us.

anyway, i'm like sort of confused right now. is it a yes or no? i better not judge. i always judge and things turned out awry ): i try not to think about it, but i can't. tried so hard but i falter. why do i fall for someone so easily? it always happen and i end up hurting myself? serve me right. it's all my fault. so is he like that to me or to everyone else? i can't really see it. the thing is- IS IT JUST ME OR HIM?

i shall stop wasting my time thining about it and pondering over it. i'll just let nature take its course.

to andrew ong lp, have a save journey on monday! sorry can't send you off. heading to jb ): we will meet up when you're back. me, you, kenneth and ain (:

Stop Crying Your Heart Out

2011-03-19T00:27:00.000+08:00

Smile

2011-03-16T22:15:00.000+08:00

Now, I've the time to blog. Life has been mean to me. I don't know how to explain this. I'm in such huge dilemma. Met Kenneth yesterday after work. Seems like we have so many things to say and share. Only person left to meet is Andrew Ong. Leaving for uk in few days and still refused to meet. Heh.

Monday was crazy stock take. Stupid backstabber bitch. You should die for making my life miserable.

Two new part-timers join esprit. Not really new. Two weeks already. So epic. They are notoriously crazy. They can't work together. Whole store will rock. Hahahaha.

They are many things I can't say it here. Will be back soon!

I caught you by my mouth :*

Work is crazy

2011-02-05T23:17:00.000+08:00

Yes, work is crazy. I've no life ever since I start work. But people there make me want to come for work everyday :D except for some :/

I caught you by my mouth :*

Faw-some

2011-02-04T12:51:00.000+08:00

Alright, this post is specially for my 'sisters'- Kenneth, Hairil and Terence.

We've not meet and talk for as long as it has been. I think I should be the one making plans now because everytime you guys say you guys wanna plan, it never happen. I shall take over/ stick to the job permanently from now on. Yes, no matter how busy I am. Please be awed (:
I hope you guys are doing fine. Luckily there's SMS :D we should meet up soon and talk about life around us. I know each one of you are having problems. Me too ):

I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY wish/hope/pray/want this friendship to stay. You know the one that busted us? a*****? Please don't be like him after we have gone our separate ways. *I feel like crying now* hope there'll be more ups than downs in this friendship.
And and and, if each one of you is attached, please be like sister Ken *chuckles* don't forget each other okay :D please don't change. I like the way you guys are now. Stay this way okay (: we will meet soon alright. It's a definite must! (: let's be friends forever (sounds like primary school)
<3

I caught you by my mouth :*

L-O-V-E

2011-01-20T10:48:00.000+08:00

HELLO! This is the first time I'm thinking so hard about a stranger. What the hell :/ how I wish I'll see him again. Totally wasted for not working at the fitting room. On the last day they put me there, he wasn't walking. Was good to look at him then look away when he turns into my direction. Hee. Most probably, I'll see him again at RAFFLES! This is not hoping but want to. Hehe. I really want to. I wish I could choose who I want to see everyday before I leave house.

I caught you by my mouth :*

I guess it's true

2010-11-28T19:49:00.001+08:00

I caught you by my mouth :*

Upset

2010-11-24T23:43:00.001+08:00

I'm super upset i will not say it here because its too personal. But then, is there anybody in this world who would help someone without raking the past? Without expecting any rewards?

I wish my dad is still around. Really wish. I can only wish because he will never come back.
There must be a reason why God take him away from us. Now, I can't seem to let go of it easily even after three years or so.

I caught you by my mouth :*

Please please please

2010-11-14T11:57:00.001+08:00

Please please please! I HOPE I GET THE JOB! That day one told me I got it already. Even ask when I can start work. I've already given the date and stuff. But now ): they say ask the boss again. What is this? Please everyone pray for me ):

I caught you by my mouth :*

I AM TIRED

2010-11-13T17:35:00.000+08:00

HELLO! Exams are finally over. Something to be happy about. I'm so relieved. I am so tired and restless. I need to relax my mind. Hmm :/ just found out something though. Not gonna say it. I'm not sad or heartbroken. I'm happy for him, but I don't know why I'm feeling weird. so tired to feel this way.

Anyway, I'm meeting huiyin on Monday! I am meeting tw, Hairil and Kenneth too but not sure when. Wonder what we can do other than movies. Hmm

I can't wait to start work and drown myself with work. I'd rather work than think about something stupid. Gotta call the store soon! I don't know what to say now. See 'ya!

I caught you by my mouth :*

Nerd

2010-11-10T16:38:00.001+08:00

When I look at the picture I was reminded how Michelle actually went through the trouble to look for a safety pin just to make me look like this. Hahaha memories. Memories are the last thing that will leave us, human. Memories stay with us forever, especially the bitter-sweet ones
Two more days an exams will be officially OVER! Sigh, I don't know how I've faired I hope I did better that last year. I'm VERY disappointed with my math though. Hmm
Time flies. Made another bunch of new friends. No comment. Some are meant to be kept, while some are not. Some are not even new friends. Its just that we never really talk to each other before and this year we became friends.
Before I forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TARIFUL! (:
Kenneth's leaving in twelve days. Small boy, we better meet soon okay?
I am very tired. All I need now is myself. I should say BEYOND TIRED! I feel like a bum now. Life for the past few months has been hectic and mundane. Some thing changes. Friends come and go. I told you, friends are like fruits. When they are ripe, sweet and everything, you choose them, pick them. When you think they are unripe or spoilt, you leave them on the shelves, throw them away. Pfft ):
Right, got to go now. See ya.
Love, amirah (:

I caught you by my mouth :*

Pfft

2010-11-09T14:00:00.001+08:00

Thank you for the bruise, table.

I caught you by my mouth :*

Oops!

2010-10-24T23:49:00.000+08:00

Okay, few more hours left! Shit ): am I ready for it? Good luck to me, me, me, me, me and me and me again and me and me and me and me and me and me and me and me and me and to everyone else who is taking o-levels! (: if you work hard, it will definitely pay off! (:

I keep dreaming of you and you and lee min Ho. What the hell -.- kbye! :*

Iloveyou (:
Imissyou <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

I'm sorry

2010-08-30T07:24:00.000+08:00

HELLO! I'm back, after like so long. Oh boy, how long has it been since I last blogged?

Lots of things happened lately. Losing another useless and worthless friend who thinks friendship is build up of thousands and thousands of words. The world around him revolves just round million of words that is available in this universe. Oh well, nothing to lose. Expected it. I wasn't hoping anything when I was friends with him. Just that, he has changed so much. Fuck all those rumors people made about us okay? It doesn't bother me at all. Eew of all people. Tsk. I wasn't even upset about it. In fact, I was happy that I'm not friends with him. He's so sarcastic that I only realize it only now. Right, so to you, FUCK YOU! Fuck your life! I don't care what will happen to you in future. I just want you to be dissed by others. I just want girls to bring you down. Bring you down so low that you're too ashamed to leave the house and face the wall. Fuck you okay. Seriously. We are NO more friends. Not now, not then and never in future. I don't need a friend like you. I hope you'll fail so badly for the course you're in now. I've deleted you of all my social networks and yeah everywhere. No wonder the rest busted you as well. Tsk tsk. You're like a dog. It suits you well. Stop calling others dog. We don't want to stoop so low to your level. It's enough to have one dog to care for. Tough job you know? Dog? You're calling yourself? Tsk tsk. No need to tell everyone. Your friend is also one right? Along the way I made new friends too (:

Okay, enough about this dog guy. So school has been okay for me. Birthday, fasting month, hang outs, they have been great. I can't wait for us to go and break-fast together. And, I MISS MY COLLEAGUES! (: I just want to go back and hug them. Okay. So prelims' is in three days. Then o-levels. How fast is that? Okay, got to go now babies! <3

iloveyou! (:
Imissyou! <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

Why?

2010-06-09T23:02:00.001+08:00

Why does things doesn't turn out the way I want it? I want you but things just have to turn out this way ): you're leaving in four days. Will I get to see you in that four days? Will I ever see you again? People always say if it's meant to be, it's yours. If it's not, it's not yours. So? Are you telling me or not? Why choose the hard way? What's the technology for? Do I really have to do this? Why make me do this? Why do I only find the courage only when I found out thy you're leaving? What about the times we had? The great times? Do you remember? Or have you forgotten? Is it that easy? I'm so gonna ask you so please make me work over the weekends. I really have to do it. I'm really curious and ireally want to know because this just brings us nowhere. You have to tell me and I've to tell you on how I feel about you an stuff. I have to do it. Please give me the courage an opportunity. Please don't bring me down, baby ): Iloveyou, really do. Please try to understand how I feel. I miss you. It has been so long since we last met.

I caught you by my mouth :*

Tell me why

2010-05-25T18:10:00.001+08:00

I WANT THOSE SHOES (:

Let me talk to you about Sunday. It's a great day (: people at work and stuff. It was a laughter day. People have problem with the way I laugh :/ laugh like thy also people say not sincere hahaha. One auntie say cute lol.
After work, went home alone ): but saw someone at the platform. So I went home with M. It was great (: I wouldn't say he's my partner because we are not. Friends, no- more than that. I don't know. I really don't know. I've been thinking and trying hard to find a conclusion to this. The only way is to ask. But why me!? How can I possibly ask? I haven't find the courage to ask yet ): time is running out. Only one more month left. After thy, I won't be seeing M for six months ): what is going to happen in that six months? I'm not sure either. Why? I'm truly concerned about what will happen during that six months. It's a long period. God knows what will happen. I can't say I'm depressed because in perfectly normal. Just this thing is like a heavy rock inside me. It's great the other day. Was the first and I hope it's not the last. First time publicly. But what is he implying? Does he feel the same way as I do? Does our heart beat the same? I don't know. I only have the answer for myself. The rest is for him to tell me. Only he knows. We know right? But sigh ): who would understand how I feel right now? Ask or not to ask? ))):

Iloveyou (:
Imissyou <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

Hello babies (:

2010-05-06T10:59:00.001+08:00

Hello! This is one awesome apps for iPhone photography. Alright, life has been good since I've been away from work. One load out of my mind. First week of weekends was awesome. Long break, I tell you. Friday Saturday Sunday monday Tuesday. Hehe. Saturday was wisely spent till late (: it was great, but thousands apologies to ong for that spillage. So have to go an buy shirt for himself. Alright then, yesterday was practical. Today going to force myself to read my social studies notes. Tomorrow start of exams. Non-stop. Thursday no paper (: prolly next Friday I'll be back at work :/ this Saturday I'm going out! (Y) hahahahahaha. Yeah! Again. I wish my watch will come in soon ): pfft. First come first serve basis.
WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE!? >:(

Alright got to go. See you (:

iloveyou (:
imissyou <3

Continuation

2010-04-19T13:28:00.001+08:00

Hello (: sorry I know I've promised to post on Friday but I'm too tired. Do you want ne to continue? Next post okay? Friday and Sunday has been fine. Saturday equals to shit. Got chased out of mr chan class. He just ask the whole class to go. Go where? Go home. Because only three of them brought the practical book. Okay my morning has been wasted just like that. Friday already slept at one then Saturday give me this shit. Ah nevermind. Then afternoon my workplace called to ask if I'm coming for work or not. I already told the lady i can't wok on that day. Sheesh. What the hell. Sunday was fine. Mid shift and he's in full shift. Didn't go for break. Went to sleep straight. Oh my god then he came in the pantry. He already produce to the noise pollution. Then after that disturb me. Tsk. Geez. There goes my forty-five minutes of sleep. Only left with fifteen minutes. It's funny to see him sleep hahahahaha. Then estee and Kathy came back. Just nice after my break. Woohoo! So nice to see them. Kathy with short hair hehe. Damn tired still even after break. Thanks to ehem ehem. Nevermind I'll be back for revenge. So many things happen for the past three days. Sort of good (: yeah no work till next month! Rejoice! Must make good use if my one month exam leave. Alright (: having math test now bye bye.
Iloveyou (:
I'llmissyoulikecrazy (:

Love, amirah (:
<3

I caught you by my mouth :*

Third year

2010-04-15T22:32:00.001+08:00

A TRIBUTE TO MY LATE DAD, HAMZAH BIN MAWI.

Three years ago, at this time, this moment, I was in the hospital. In the waiting room after doctor told us that my dad passed away. Relatives, close friends, everyone came down to pay their last respect to my dad. Who would have thought? When people tol me how great a guy he is, I cried even louder. Who doesn't know? Only I was blind to see that. Relationship with dad was good till I reach my teenage time. Fun fairs, rollercoaster ride, a ride on a motocycle atound the carpark, ice-cream treats, and everything else. Those times ): how I miss those time. At this time three years ago, I was busy crying my heart out and roaming around the hospital at night, alone, aimlessly. What should I do now that my dad is gone? Forever. While roaming around, I also knew that I only have thirty- five minutes left before my dad is brought to the 'human-fridge'; mortuary. Fast right? Can't even see him any longer. I dint even stay in the holding room. Why? Why didn't I even stay and look at him for a little longer for the last time? Is it because I can't stand him? No. Because I've no more tears left for him. I love you dad. I went home looking at the bed, the food he brought home from work, the newspaper left open on the table and the cup. I imagined him sitting at his private spot laughing and talking with us. His smile, his look. All lingers around me. Everything just come and go. Like the wind.
To be continued,.
I'll post about what happen on the sixteenth three years ago tomorrow. Please do come back.

I caught you by my mouth :*

What took you so long?

2010-04-14T21:58:00.001+08:00

What took you so long? It has been so long since I blog. It has been so long since he last left. Coming back soon (:
I feel like an idiot. Waiting for don't know what.
Two more days. My dad's third year. Really fast. I can't go on anymore. See you ):

I caught you by my mouth :*

Shootmyselfdead

2010-03-30T13:20:00.000+08:00

Bloody sick ): I'm at home, yes. I haven't been going to school since 120310. Only went last Wednesday and Friday for oral and mock exams. Sigh ):
I'm not surprised, not everything lasts. I got my heart broken so many times that I stopped keeping track. Sigh. Stupid &@"&$"]#^+]=^<. why did she, the ex, come back in his life? ): how sad can I be? I'm like the third party now. Bloody hell. My fault? It's over? Forget it. Dang! Fuck

I caught you by my mouth :*

Meant to err :/

2010-03-24T23:01:00.001+08:00

When I went to my blog, I realised there are so many spelling errors. Damn thumb. I got rather angry with you yesterday, doyouevenknow? Alright, I don't mean it. I'm sorry. Please don't throw your phone, monitor, keyboard and especially yourself into the sea. My, I just want a reply. That's all. At least I know you're there. I feel so vexed when I didn't hear from you. I you're working, then that's a different case. I'm sorry ): imissyou (: IMUSTBECRAZY to say that to you ): big mistake.
Now I'm just too tired and sick to bother about you. It won't be as complicated as it seems, if you tell me the truth. All day I SIGH and sigh and sigh. What is the world coming to. I must be blind. You're blind, I'm blind- that makes us (: you and me; we'll make it good <3 why can't you just get it in your thick skull that I erm love you. Feel the same way, not. I live my friends just as much (: going out with them is so fun (: after one week break, today o's my first day in school. Then Friday and Saturday. Awesome (: work on Friday Saturday Sunday. Aww ):

Iloveyou (:
Imissyou <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

Birkenstock

2010-03-16T11:49:00.001+08:00

I want want want this Birkenstock. I have the one strap then two straps and i want this three straps! & I want another vans!

Alright, enough already. It had been so long since I blog. So far, so good, I guess. School and work totals up to hectic schedule. No time for this or that. Probably, I would want to learn more Chinese, minus the writing.

Let me tell you about school, it has been good so far (: going out, studying with estee at esplanade library and so on. Last week, Terence, Hairil and I had a bet. No cursing for a week. Terence contributes the most. Oh well, it's over now. It's funny how we will go like- haha ten cents for that.

Then work, it's really -.- I tell you. Last Friday, sales was very bad for me. You know why? Because I've swollen red eyes and no one wants to approach me. I can hardly open my eyes because of that and i keep sniffing due to coldness. When I first walked in the store room, rock was like, what happen? Are you sick? I told him about my left eye and he assumed that I looked at too many guys while on the way to work :/ hahaha. It got bad when I start work. I'm in no mood to talk to anyone when I don't feel well. Then slowly it got to my head. I fell so sick and feverish and nausea. I sweat it was a bad one. Then ***** talked to me. I'm sorry ): your words just didn't register to my brain. He asked what happen. I don't know why I said sore eyes. Bloody hell, I can't really open my left eye then he sort of teased me. Making his eyes the same as mine. Not funny la! This auntie said I look as if I'm high from something hahahah. Fact is, I'm groggy when I'm sick and absent-minded when I'm sick hahaha. Sometimes I don't know what I'm saying or doing. Right :/ then break time. I wanted my sleep so badly. All the noises and people asking me this and that kept me awake. Then someone asked about my left eye. Luckily she helped me. She asked help from someone who work at the optician upstairs. Yes, at last! Cleansed it with saline. A long thread was found. Damn long. Like someone's hair! Then went back to the shop, thank the lady who worked at the optician upstairs. Then of to pantry. Supposingly, i was to get a new pair of lenses but because of my astig, i dodnt get. Still, I'm thankful. Thank god! Nap for ten minutes or less than back to work! I looked damn tired after all that pain. People helped me out at work (: thank you. Asked why I'm bored and if I'm okay. Wasn't bored. Just sick. When I didn't reply and sniff, thought I was crying :/ Okay then the burning sensation, redness and swell subside hour after hour. It hot better (: thank you! Sorry if I hibernate again. Hahahaha

I caught you by my mouth :*

Two is better than one

2010-02-28T22:30:00.001+08:00

& maybe two is better than one. I already miss you ): you tricked me the other day and you deserve it! Hmph (: then you tried to make it up to me hahahahahaha. Apology accepted (: :* haahahah. There are things not meant to be said. I'll stop here (:

Iloveyou (:
Imissyou <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

I already caught you by my mouth

2010-02-22T22:46:00.001+08:00

It's a quarter after one I am all alone and I need you now. Sigh ): the feeling is still unclear. How an we make it clear? Would you make it clear to me? It just sucks to be in confusion. When you feel like it, you talk to me. If you don't, I won't hear from you at all. help help help help )))): now scandal with china colleague ): sad to the max. Alright I know it's meant to be a joke and I've no right to day anything because we are not in some special relationship. Alright. Should I message you now? Dang!

I caught you by my mouth :*

Outoutout

2010-02-16T22:23:00.001+08:00

Haha hello (: went out today. Almost can't make it. Haha met Hairil first. Walked down to marina square first to eat kfc ((: then talk lots of nonsense hahaha. Wanted to go to marina barrage, in the end Hairil brought me don't know where. Okay, blind leading the blind. Then suddenly ended up somewhere near gloating platform. Got funfair man. Lol but didn't go for any. In the end decided to go to Asian civilisation museum up ahead. Had ice-cream! (: then had to wait for Kenneth, Andrew, and Danial. Them went to funan to wait for Danial. Walk back to raffles city, esprit because I need socks. Bought a pair. At the same time I visited him (: suppose to wait for him outside the store but then don't know where he went. He said toilet. They already walk so I just follow them. Hakeem also working. Hahaha. Hair still looks the same. Overall it was a great day (:

Iloveyou (:
Imissyou <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

Iloveyou

2010-02-15T19:11:00.001+08:00

Hello (: second day of holiday. I still have no idea of what to do at home. Had to give today's outing a miss due to cramps ):
"why boring? Because I won't be around right (:"
"haha,yea..damn.."
Hahaha (: okay okay I'll stop all this but I can't help it hahaha. No worries, time will pass quickly. Friday will come with just a blink of an eye. But can't wait to see him (: just stick around and miss each other
I thought of meeting him during his break tomorrow but I'm too lazy and shy to message him. I am so bored at home so I might as well meet him during his break (: for one and a half hour (((: or maybe I'll just wait till Friday. Patience. Wednesday I'll prolly skip school to complete my f&n (: should I message him? Hmm. alright too much emotions going on here. I miss miss miss miss miss miss you so so so so so so so so much

Iloveyou (:
Imissyou <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

2010-02-14T19:12:00.001+08:00

I am wishing everyone a happy valentines day and a Chinese new year (: and oh happy holidays (: long weekend yeah? Hahaha.
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to you (:
I still haven't eat any oranges yet ): soon soon soon. O had breakfast deluxe this morning and my mom and sister gbe me their scrambled eggs (: I'm such a happy person! hahahaha. I wantto collect red packets too ):

Iloveyou (:
Imissyou <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

Hellohellohello

2010-02-13T21:44:00.001+08:00

Hello! I hate work today! I ain't no slave for you. You look like a mouse but the mouse looks better and cuter. Few hours before break, already someone makes me so pissed off. I'm turn off at her attitude. She look like a bloody mouse! But a mouse is cuter, she look horrible. FUCK! Already I'm so hungry and tired of folding and stuff, she just have to make it worse. This and that. Do yourself la! Stealing away my customer at times.
And then, that makes me so turn off that I gave everyone the look ):
Farhan came in. He thought I was hungry, that's why I'm angry but that's not the case. I was reluctant to tell him. I don't want to tell him but it just happened. He gave me a tiny tap on my shoulder. Thanks! That makes me feel a little better. Then break (: the talking, laugh and stuff just made me feel a little much better ((: thank you so much guys haha.
Now, I've to thank someone
Thank you for that hug (: it just made me feel better than before i almost cried but i didn't. People might think I'm crazy.
I just want to bitch-slap her.
And Hakeem, thank you for enlightening me (: never work sey!
Alright got to go. Bye (:

Iloveyou (:
Imissyou <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

2010-02-09T19:57:00.000+08:00

I'm sick ): at last we talk. Facebook a little, message a little. Awesome :D he asked me not to spread my virus. Bastard sey. I WANT ORANGES! (((: :} I cannot put the title of this post. Very stupid. Alright, I'm going to sleep now. :D

I caught you by my mouth :*

Let's sing

2010-02-08T23:42:00.001+08:00

There's a fraction of your love below the air. Justin bieber- common denominator.
Picture of you just flashed in my mind. You're the air I breathe in (:
I had a bad dream about you and am so scared ): I don't know if I should tell you when I see you next time. You just blatantly ignore me. Completely )))): you just walked away from me, from my life. From there on, I felt so lost and I don't know where to go from there. Am I clinging too much on you? Why do I feel as if I'm so dependent on you? Why do I feel as if you'll be there for me when I needed you, protect me when I'm falling? Why do I have this kind of feeling? Yesterday was rather disappointing ): really upset. You just asked I was and when I told you, you didn't reply. So if it's not me, you'll reply? You broke my heart into trillion pieces. There are so many things I wanted to tell you and share with you but you're never there for me, to hear me out? Maybe work is occupying you. I understand but don't you jaw a minute for me? Then why bother making all the first move and look for my number? Why can't you just ask it from me? Prolly, I won't give it to you?why mist you make the first move? You're just confusing me, making my mind in a whirl ))): baby, if you know how much time I spend thinking of all this and you, would you still be indifferent towards it? Alright, got to go. Bye!

Iloveyou (:
Imissyou <3

Picture of you is framed in my heart (:
Te memories is still etched in my mind. Memories ((((: <3333333

I caught you by my mouth :*

In your eyes

2010-02-07T22:08:00.001+08:00

In your eyes you only see me and in my eyes i only see you. To me, in my ryes you're everything so perfect. But there's still inside of me that's missing. You're missing piece I need the song inside of me. Need to find you, gotta find you (((: I've been working the past weekends. Tired you know. Eyes got so red. I think it's cool to leave house with red eyes hahahahahahaha (((((((: B shift yesterday. A and m shift today. I made a sin by eating macdonald's today. He's on weekend off )))): alright enough already. School tomorrow :D need to complete my English first :D any other homework? I'm nor too sure either. Alright got to go. Bye see you (:

Iloveyou (:
Imissyou <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

HELLO!

2010-02-05T20:58:00.001+08:00

Hello! (: I'm currently at esplanade library, studying with ESTEE! We're so near our work place :D so tired but managed to complete almost every piece of my homework. Estee is going to teach me chemistry now. Oh, she actually draw out a mindmap for me. So sweet of her (: thank you so much ((: now I don't know where she go. Yesterday night, got pranked! It was ashraf, Hairil and terence's idea. Lol damn stupid. Still say this is not a joke or prank. Haha okay, now my brain is so not functioning due to freezing. The library is super duper cold to the max and I've no extra layer of clothing.
Alright, then lunch-ed at marina (: lunch at six haha. Lunch-cum-dinner ((: so I learn new stuff today (: I'll be working tomorrow (: so happy but he won't be working. His off day. Dog sia.
People change. Friends are like fruits, if they are good and ripe, you pick it up and make it yours. If it's bad, you throw them away. Alright Kenneth? (: I had great time disturbing people today, especially Firdaus. Hahahahahaha. Dog. Alright got to go. Bye baby (: I'll see you around.

Iloveyou (:
Imissyou <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

How I wish

2010-02-04T20:57:00.001+08:00

How I wish I'm holding a picture of you in my hand. Too bad, I don't have a picture of you. I only picture you in my mind. Boo hoo hoo ): I really miss you. Very badly. I just want to hold you ): alright, sounded wrong because we're not in any relationship, or attached. You make my head spinning. So confused. I don't know how to talk to you or ask you. ): Sarah said he likes me? Oh my god. Scandal? Hahahahahahaha right. I'm going gaga now : O
Try to take a picture of love <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

I miss you this bad ):

2010-02-03T15:41:00.001+08:00

Hello ((: I miss miss miss miss miss you very very very very very muuuuuccccchhhhhh!!!!! ))): I can't wait to see you. Should be soon (: don't tell you who (: I can't share this feeling with you but I really want to. I can only share it with my friend how I feel about you now. If only you know how I feel for you. If only you know how much I miss you and how I long to see you day after day :/ prolly, that one day will come. I shall stop here.
I accidentally clear the post just now and I don't remember what I typed.

Iloveyou (:
Imissyou <3

Amirah loves you, ______ (: <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

My wallpaper :D

2010-02-02T17:04:00.001+08:00

I caught you by my mouth :*

I'm back

2010-02-02T14:50:00.000+08:00

Hello! I'm updating through my iPhone :O life has been rather fine for me (: went to work last weekend. Was awesome (: saturday wasn't that great though. I won't tell you why. Sunday was fine, other than those minor setbacks. So I SAW HIM AT WORK ON SUNDAY! He's working. Suddenly I have this feeling for him. Okay, not suddenly. It has been quite long already but nothing comes out from it. Maybe we're trying to show it to each other but it's not working. Estee was working on that day as well ((((((:
I MISS HER SO MUCH!!! Ah at last (: awesome! Alright, on my way home now. See you ((:
Iloveyou (:
<3

I caught you by my mouth :*

i met you

2010-01-23T17:21:00.002+08:00

hello, i'm back (:
i'm typing this blog with a heavy heart
i got my heart broken so many times, i start keeping track
it's so confusing, complicated, tiring, boring and etc.
so tiring to wait for you to talk to me :/

the thought of going to work next week makes me feel so sick in the stomach.
how i wish i've never met you or talked to you.
oh well, i didn't talk to you first, you did.
we smile :D
okay, enough about you here.

motivator is back ((((:
he's still the same towards me, always nice, smiling and waving to me (((:
we, both, must be shocked that we'll meet again.
somehow i think that it's really a waste not to go to you and greet you when i saw you at zara last week. you were too fast for me. wasted :/
at least now i see you everyday. we'll talk more, really! (:

you reminded me of events that happened last year (:
now,you know (: i want to see you everyday,every minute (:
your smile melts my heart :DDDDD
now i'm going on and on talking about you.
should stop and save it for my own safekeeping (: <3

alright, back to you.
i just hate talking about you because you're a heartbreaker.
i don't know if you know i'm talking about you
& i don't even know if you ever come to my blog.
love is an illusion-that's what i saw on your profile.
love ain't an illusion :/ if it happens, it just happened.
how would you know if love is an illusion when the feelings just come naturally without you even realising it, like me.
after that day, i think i'm blind; just as blind as you.
i don't see the thrill in making others feel so confused and mind in a whirl and a heart full of questions. if you think it is, then it's your problem!
why do i sound so angry? it's not as if we're related in any way. we're merely, colleagues. alright, of you say it. i don't even think we're friends. even if you think we are, i wouldn't want a friend like you who keep his friend in confusions and full of questions, unanswered.

i just want to be far away from you, lest i get hurt.
having this kind of feeling sucks. it just won't get me anywhere. not here, not there. stuck.
i hope you get struck by lightning for doing this to me (:

i really love you
i really miss you.
i will see you soon (:
i just can't wait to see and meet you.

now i feel as if i'm procrastinating.
first, i want. next, i do not want.

I LOVE YOU!!! (:
<3
:*

hello

2010-01-11T23:52:00.004+08:00

i miss you very much, but what can i possibly do? ):
i got so tired of you sometimes. you din't even bother to reply my message. what's the point :/
i think you know i'm refering to you. yes, you ):

sometimes i feel that you make me feel worse than better.
you didn't bother to try.
sadly, i'll wait for you.
if not, i'll slowly let you go again. if that's the best option. i'll see you less after this. i hope i won't let you get in my way.
i pray that i won't miss you, think of you or love you secretly.
because i know you won't ):

sucks sucks sucks. i just have to get use to it and go ):

goodbye. iloveyou (:
<3

goodbye

2010-01-10T14:59:00.002+08:00

HELLO babies (:

just when i wanted to commit myself to you, i had to let you go unwillingly. that's because i don't see us connecting. i think we just couldn't connect. i thought we feel the same way for each other but i think i was wrong. it just went dry when work ends ): boo. hence, the sadness. i thought i'll see you today, but nevermind since you didn' reply me :/ i got tired of asking already. i shall not force you. we'll meet soon (: but i'm SO NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO SEE YOU. i feel your warmth when we hugged. it felt great to see you most of the time at work, even if you're not at the back. your smile makes me feel great. your touch makes me rather speechless. when we kissed,it makes me more speechless. now i feel so empty. i don't feel like seeing you already. ))))):
i'm sorry we didn't talk the other day ): i just think it's no point talking to you when i can't make my feelings shown and known to you.

alright, results will be out tomorrow. i don't know how i'm feeling now. my brain is hibernating. i've been trying to keep myself busy everyday even if i'm penniless (: after pay day i've been going out. hehe. friday i met RON!
after so long!!! at last.
my brain is not functioning now. sucks. tomorrow, first person who'll know my results will be, i'm not so sure either.

iloveyou, ____!
& i'll miss you.

hello baby, i'm back (((:

2009-12-23T17:20:00.003+08:00

hello ((:

it has been so long since i blog. have been busy with work. family
I TOTALLY LOVE MY JOB
kenneth is working near me too but his contract his ending really soon
so yesterday i waited for kenneth to finish. then went back to my work place then went for dinner
yesterday was REAL FUN! was in mid-shift. then i have the luxury to sit and relax at the back fitting room.
Ammelyn was like, amirah go to the back fitting room and take over MAMAT
i was like huh, who? so i went to the back. MAMAT wasn't there. then suddenly someone shouted, "eh, amirah!" wah, thanks a lot la. customer also know my name now. haha bloody nonsensical guy. sam and estee were working too (: woah, estee (((: sam needs to maximize his volume. really. went for break with estee then walk around. so yesterday two customers scolded me. i also raised my voice a little. my bad :/
umbrella also want new piece! MAMAT say the one displayed outside maybe got holes that's why need new piece. ._.
then MAMAT got this disturbing smell. since the first day i saw him. i was wondering if that's the detergent smell, so i asked. he thought i was being funny. then he told me it's his perfume and it's expensive. haha

25thdecember2009
so ESTEE is working b shift today. so boring )):
kenneth had to 'camp' at his work place.
very stupid
had to give tomorrow's gathering a miss, again )))):
was working a shift today. free-loader. nothing much to be done. a little bit of this and that, walla can go home already!
was so tired so i went home.
didn't even went meet yanrong. next time perhaps
sigh, feel so horrible now. don't know why.
i've reactivated my facebook! thanks to andrew ong.
people keep asking if i have one. now i reactivate okay? (((:
alright got to go. bye (:

ilu. imu (((:

<3>

2009-11-05T18:46:00.002+08:00

HELLO!

it has been so long since i blog. so many events tookplace for th past four months, but this year's birthday is really a great thing minus the moment i got my mother tongue result. other than that everything is fine (: ain, i know you know (((:

worst event ever was when kenneth did someting real bad.
long story. i'll tell you next time.

i'll write a longer one next time.

got to read for monday's paper now!!!

bye (((:
iloveyou (((:

hellloooooo ((((:

2009-08-13T15:42:00.002+08:00

HELLO!!!
it has been so long ((:
previous weeks was good. captain's ball training, soccer inter-class, captain's ball inter-class, lunch with friends at SEOUL GARDEN,....
we won!!! i thought we're going to lose.
okay unexpected. both soccer and captain's ball got the third position.
kind of sad but nevrmind (((:
so on 070809, that VALERIE keep rooting for our class. no me.
damn irritating. i know it's not for our class or me la. it's for that someone. what the fuck :/
sometimes when i look at her face she looks like some patricia mok with face which got run down by a bus or lorry. i don't know why but i just have something against her.

I HATE HER!!!!!!!!
alright-o enough about her. she got this deep voice that sometimes i mistook her for sahdique. sorry (:
haha. school has been good but not too good :/
MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!!! (((:
and unfortunatey my o-level malay results will be out on my BIRTHDAY ))):
i don't know if i should feel happy or what.
rant rant rant!!!!

hehe hafizah, stop bitching la. bad influence to us sey.
now i've change seat. no more simin. now it's bettina and louis. so pressurized.
no math today!
rejoice!!!!
i'm addicted to this biscuit. i have to eat it everyday, if not i'll die.

kenneth is so evil ): i still don't understand the kumar thing. no one wants to explain to me.
even sahdique make fun of me in malay class :/
recently, the girls got so many conflicts. i'm so indifferent towards it. what to do.
nothing to do with me also. but people want to find fault with me.

VALERIE THINKS SHE'S VERY SEXY WITHOUT HER PANTS UNDERNEATH HER SKIRT.
so disgusting. so now when i look at her, i will be reminded of andrew yeo. makes me want to laugh but can't.
andrew yeo will look for me and give me a punch if i disturb valerie. hehe joking. so is she pretty, andrew?

I WANT A POLAROID CAMERA! ): (:

that day ishpal and i took pictures of this girl. oh my god. damn disgusting but ishpal loves it (((:

alright alright i got to go.
bye bye ((:
take care.
ilu.imu

ugly

2009-07-31T16:25:00.001+08:00

VALERIE IS SO UGLY. UGLIER THAN MY BACKSIDE!
stupid woman. i don't know why i've something against her.
)):

hello!!!!!

2009-07-31T15:53:00.002+08:00

hello (((:
i'm in the computer lab now. waiting for ain to finish.
talking to aelfira now. i miss her ))):
i heard something from her. shucks.
today was fun, especially english and cme.
haha ishpal got bullied by me today. haha!
i wanted to sms my friend then accidentally sent to him. he scold me sia. he was like i'm behind you only. don't have to message me. sorry la ):
today math was my embarrassing day. malisah, you watch out. haha.
so today yizhen disturb me. asking me to be a nerd.
lol nerd attack. haha.
alright malisah have all the pictures haha. and mine is in my phone. ishpal laugh at those photos.
i disturb colin koh today. i don't know why i did that. haha his contact lens went dry so he was looking for solution. i only have eye drop. haha he asked me if he has to pay. i told him it's okay. only eight dollars. lol he said it's so kind of me. he wants to return me back one tube. don't want men. so embarrassing.
ishpal worse. ask me to get out of my shyness. i shall not tell you why.
oh anyway HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ANDREW YEO ((: eh never say thank you one.
hehe. so after school was captain's ball (:
i just realised i've a bruise from willy teo haha. that was like two days ago. damn slow.
today benedict almost hit my head with the soccer ball!!!! TWICE! so i have to keep shunning from the ball. now my tail bone feel pain again. sucks la! don't know can play for captain's ball or not.
i saw valerie. shit la i hate her face. stupid girl. die die die. sigh i want to play badly
i told ishpal mali i would go and give support to them for the soccer game. he was like us or only one person. evil sia. :/
hehe. ain is finishing! yay!!!!!
can go off already. need to help my mother bake when i reach home.
my brother got ndp tickets. it's at padang. sucks man. i hate crowded places.

haha that day we talk something about fhm. they make fun of me ah! argh!!!!!
until now. haha. all thanks to the two unknown guys who message me la. who sia. i don't even know them. so ignore them. ignorance is a bliss. wah irritating you know those two unknown guys. so i told them i'm very fat and need to go for TAF club. hahaha.
lame la. now which century already? still do those kind of childish stuff.

alright got to go now ((:

iloveyou ((:
amirah <3

ily. imu ((:

i'm back!

2009-07-22T15:17:00.002+08:00

hello! (:
i'll be having malay listening comprehension later. sucks ): at five!
my week has been good. today i was asked to go to the dentist and we sat in there till 1225 haha. hairil too!we waited for everyone to finish.
today english was quite dry. alomost die.
now i'm on the library. my laptop is still down ): i've yet send it for repair.
yesterday valerie was like standing outside my class then she asked me to call for michelle. i ignored and walked away. but i did tell michelle.
after school i had science practical. then stayed in school for quite some time.
i wanted to ask that andrew yeo for his newspaper so i asked aelfira to call him. haa i wanted to read but didn't have the chance. so i told him after school. while waiting school to end i feel so bored that i started tearing his newspaper. small pieces. yeah then wanted to read it after school but i've practical.
so i just returned him but i told him i haven't read. then he asked me to keep.
alright i did. aelfira gave me that cheeky look.
haha then we keep wondering if there's captain's ball practice, but don't have.
after that was fun but i'm lazy to type.
ain send me and malisah to the gate. we wanted to go back but we went back in. haha ain thought we were playing tricks on her. but we did not.
hahahaha.
*ain crazy moment*

then yesterday mrs ng was like andrew what are you looking at? lol she wanted to write down his temperature but he was daydreaming i guess. then she gave me that look. as if i did something wrong like that.
she told us boring stories, scold us, make fun of andrew ong then when off. lame enough?
i was so tired that i almost fell asleep. i kept eating sweets during her lesson and put all rubbish and papers under my desk cover. haha.

alright got to go now!
i'll be back soon

iloveyou (:
amirah (:

hello ))): sad

2009-07-10T15:05:00.002+08:00

hellohellohello (((:
i'm in school library now (:
doing coursework. daryl: do it in school library.
haha. listening to sober by pink now. haha. no one in library. only me and malisah and the librarian.
stupid laptop and thumbdrive. curse them. i can't go online ):
kenneth laugh at me.
sigh this is my saddest day in life )))))))):
three days straight of stupid moment.
today i banged onto a table. damn dumb.
physics was okay. keep bitching with muzfirah.

sigh. i got to go. see you all around (:
iloveyou (:
amirah (:

hello ):

2009-07-09T21:37:00.002+08:00

argh ): i'm so sad right now. stupid f&n file can't be open )))):

$%%^^**(@#@ sigh. i've to hand in by next lesson ):

i don't know what to do. yesterday was my stupid blur bird brain day.
daryl said i'm NOT a birdbrain (((: yay thank you!
sigh. i walk into a railing today. two stupid moments in two days straight.
daryl just laugh at my stupidity today ):

anyway thank you andrew. thank you malisah. thank you for explaining evaluation to me and repeating it a million time. i totally forgot how to do. no idea at all.

ah thank you to andrew again for sending his sample to me (:
but i fell asleep after i ask you so many things. sorry ):

i realised i keep replying daryl the same thing.
"i feel so happy today", "i feel very happy today"
but never say why. he got fed up i guess :/
haha then he say i'm a joker ): small boy.
small = daryl lim. (damn forgot his chinese name :/)

hee (: anyway i'm having lots of deaf friends lately. still adding.
haha firdaus love the chocolates and biscuit i bought him.
and the letters too ((((:

my thumbdrive just died ): howhowhow? ):
biscuit!

i talk to ain today. so confusing.
A said this. B said that.

haha.
damn i feel so irritated.

i think i'm going to post imaginary stories soon ((: yay kenneth. i'll tell you what i mean. (:

okay see you all. bye.
iloveyou (:
amirah <3

i'm so happy (: i'm over the rainbow

2009-07-08T20:30:00.004+08:00

hello!
i'm so happy (:
okay let's start with last week first. i didn't go to school. only on monday. then wednesday i went home after 12. the mask looked weird on me :/
anyway monday was FIRDAUS' BIRTHDAY (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LOVE (:

haha so i saw daryl on the bus yesterday.
his hair hahaha.
small boy (:
ain wasn't in school for two days.
she'll be back tomorrow.
today during english i feel so stupid.
stupid moment.
feel so embarrass.
kenneth, ben, ishpal, rozie and malisah was quite pissed off when i found my phone on the floor hahaha. kenneth i'm sorry. you got scolded by mr koh because of me ):

andrew yeo is deaf. i've to repaet 16872836456 times before he could hear/ understand me.haha. but yay he lend me his reader's digest (((:
i don't even have one because i didn't come.
yay at last i got to sit next to si min (:
can bitch about mr mak again! (:

mdm fong started her long crazy lecture today. she's like a joke.
I FORGOT HOW TO DO MY F&N. DIE!
i ask aelfira she deng. ask andrew more deng.

haha i heard funny stuff from kenneth yesterday. i don't know if i should laugh at that girl for imagining something creative or pity the guy hahaha.
hahahahaha. then kenneth accompany me to ntuc to buy pad.
it was so so so so so so embarrassing. hahaha but THANK YOU KENNETH!

daryl's quote, 'won't everyone die?'
sigh. he'll go first because he haven't accompany me to eat ice-cream yet ):
today i feel so sick. denise said i looked pale. yeah i feel super sick and tired and nauseous.
not good man ):
i've been sick for very long already.
my immunity (how to spell?) suck balls.

okay okay. i've to ask people how to do f&n now. see you (:

i'm sort of back :/

2009-07-07T20:36:00.002+08:00

firstly, i'm sorry because i've no time to time to update my blog. veryyyyyy busy. i feel like dying. my sister went to hong kong. she bought me this cute pen haha. okay i admit when she's away i miss her. haha. four days only. haha. i've been coming back to school. with twins (: and ain and malisah. i'm too tired to type out everything now. i'll see you soon.
sad amirah.
iloveyou ):

you have yet found me ):

2009-05-25T19:37:00.002+08:00

hello ((:
i've not blog since last what thursday?
okay okay (: so thursday is a fine day.
english was especially fun.
i don't understand why people just can't stop disturbing me with andrew
i mean, it's a history now.
so yeah sahdique wasn't in school for the whole week. (: happy happy happy.
during english we joined our tables at the back. ian, kenneth, me, malisah, ainand ishpal; who later join us.
so ian was reading andrew's newspaper. he wanted us to pass it down the row so the newspaper will reach him. i wanted to make it fast and hassle-free so i decided just to call out for him. this small guy; midget, kenneth was like wow amirah call andrew's name. purposely right? i can't be bothered. that andrew yeo has faulty ears. he just can't seem to hear me calling his name. so i had to call him a number of times. yeah, thank god he heard me. kenneth was like wow wow. okay end here. so after that we went through the mid-year comprehension passage. suddenly we talk about down-syndrome kids and autistic kids.

kenneth: amirah what would you do if you give birth to those kind of kids?
i've yet answer him.
kenneth: oh strangle him right?
amirah: no! i'm going to keep him like my own, buy him insurance. once the interest is matured, i'll throw him down the building.
we couldn't stop laughing
kenneth: wah evil heart. black heart.
then he told this to ian.
ian: huh amirah you're really going to do that? :/
so we/ me keep talking about it.
i don't know why but it seems very evil .

so friday, i'm not in school. nothing to talk about.
saturday went to the cemetery to visit my dad. after the long wait.
i yearn to visit him, but it only lasted for awhile. i didn't really had the chance to sit a little longer.
i don't know what seems to rush. what sems more important that my dad?
sunday i've tuition. tired!

monday, today.
my thermometer malfunctioned.
andrew's hair is ? i'm not sure. lost of words.
marc's hair, worse.
i raised up my hand and told mrs ng my thermometer is not working. she gave me the look and keep asking me why.
how on earth would i know. then when she asked for my thermometer, it suddenly on by itslef. i told simin maybe it is scared of mrs ng.
hahaha so after that was free period. andrew went back i heard. during social studies, we keep talking about our primary school days. thanks to malisah. she started all of it first. hahahaha was very funny and i enjoyed it.
after that physics. free period for fifteen minutes. then miss lee came. before that was mdm neo. haha sahdique emo-ing by the window. hahahaha.
after that recess. then chemistry, malay, english.
english is another free period. me and ishpal keep talking and talking. it seems as if we have so much to say.
then geography. free period. that relief teacher is stupid. he wanted us to combine class. we all rebel and just sit in class. he got fed-up and went next door. when he came back he told us we could stay. what the hell!
talk, play games. hahaha. funny man.
didn't see the relief teacher today :/
we missed each other.
alright if only he took our class, it will not be in this kind of state.
after school we had malay atp. keep thinking if we should go. in the end we went.
after that my brothe picked me up and off i go (((:
i've malay mock exam again again again tomorrow.
followed by o level malay next monday. so fast ):
how time flies.
alright got to to.
stuck with each other

lost and insecure,
you found me you found me.
lying on the floor,
surrounded surrounded.
why'd you have to wait,
where were you where were you.
just a little late
you find me yu find me.
((((:

iloveyou (:
amirah <3>

you found me, not ):

2009-05-19T19:20:00.003+08:00

so school was alright. (:
was quite happy though. but quite sad for my friend ):
aww smile my friend ((:
last blog on the 14th.
today is the 19th. oh oh HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY ANDREW ONG!
you're seventeen now. you still owe me sweets i don't care. so last friday, paper was alright. didn't study at all. i wonder how my marks will be.
monday was alright. no monday blues. didn't get back social studies. music was fun. pictionary. chould see how marc draw his wolverine and big foot. then recess. then chemistry. 38 out of 100! first time!!!
sucks ): then after that was malay. then english. got back summary and letter writing.
scored quite well (:
math was bad. only a few passes. what the hell. then need to write a reflection on math. i pour out everything. she's goin to drown us with 150 sets of math paper till our actual o level for math. die!
then heard a shocking story. ):
i feel sorry for him but he's better now ((: YAY!

so today was cool. reach school just on time.
physics for the first two period. what 26 out of hundred. what the hell!
then it was cme. was funny. that teacher made us play a game. call out a person and you say good things about him or her.
someone said andrew yeo is caring and he has nice hair. lol nice hair my backside.
caring? wow. sound as if they are good friends.
then ashraff said something about me. can't be bothered.
i've to say about BENEDICT! i've no idea what to say about him because we don't talk.
i wanted to say he's quiet but he's not. so i'm unsure on what to say to him. so i skip. dang :/ so odd. i'm the only one who have nothing to say ))):
sorry benedict. ): next time perhaps.
alright so after that was recess,then malay and english last.
atp after school. tired ):
then head home. alk to the other bus stop with ishpal and hairil.
suddenly we talk alot haha. there's this guy who looks like a teacher in my school ((((:
i'm not telling you who. he sat next tome and he took up all my space. he's so skinny.
i've no space. no choice but to keep banging onto him. yes. the more i move, the more he sits in. okay nevermind. lucky handsome. okay joking (:
haha. AIN QUIET! YOU KNOW MY SECRETS! (:
haha. so kenneth keep being bullied. lol was funny. firdaus, keep falling sick.
i'm still a stale biscuit. my bitter flavoured friend is missing. not missing but really busy. yay, i know he can do it ((((:
alright alright waiting for my mcdonald's now. see you (:

iloveyou,
amirah (: <3

yo found me, you found me (:

2009-05-14T20:02:00.003+08:00

HELLO HELLO!!!!!!
it has been so long since i blog. sorry ):
have been really busy with school and others.
so now i'm a biscuit. yes edible.
but the stale. not telling you the story (:
i know and another knows (:

alright alright. school has been hectic.
exams, science practical, f&n practical, coursework...etc etc
okay so let's start with science practical.
first time!
my chemistry, cannot make.
physics, MORE CANNOT MAKE IT!
i've a hole in my paper. stupid.
then exams. social studies was fine. if only i read a little bit more. but sbq was nonsense!
malay sucks. i got back already. stupid ):
english was fine. on tattoos, bla bla bla.
math was not so good and not so bad. skip lots of questions. some not sure how to do it. some no time at all.
science. chemistry was okay. physics not really.
geography. anyhow bomb la. whatever that is in my mind just write.
tomorrow is science mcq and f&n. lazy to study.
so that day for geography, i've to sit super far away from the rest because i'm sick!
they keep asking me why but i didn't bother to answer.
that mr yee keep disturbing others.
f&n practical was horrible. i feel like crying.
oh daryl, i still keep those food. it's turning bad.
still want them? (:
alright so my menu and everthing sucks. aelfira one was real good. malisah's chocolate too was good!

okay so waited for ain. like thousand years man.
so no paper today (:
tomorrow is the last day (((:
yay then need to start studying real hard.
alright i got to go now (:
i'll see you soon

right round :D

2009-04-15T19:58:00.002+08:00

hellohellohello! (((:
i'm back i'm back (:
so let me start with last week.

monday
on MC

tuesday
on Mc

wednesday
came to school. and left at 1130hrs. thank you zasli for accompanying me (((:

thursday
still sick. on MC

friday
no school! public holiday. my mom sign me up for some lame cooking lesson. don't ask me about it. sucks :/

saturday
f&n

sunday
complete my stuff

so this week, i'm back for school. so so so far behind now.
i've math test yesterday. hard hard hard!
today was horrid.
got back my math mock exam paper.
i got 21/80!
sucks. actually 22 but i'm lazy to go and change.

so after school went to study. i did math.
sigh. alright alright. got to do my f&n and catch up with all my studies.
exams soon! ):
alright alright see you. bye!

iloveyou (: <3

oh baby, i know sometimes it's gonna rain

2009-04-06T14:52:00.003+08:00

She's starin' at me
I'm sittin' wonderin' what she's thinkin'
Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin' just turns into screamin'
And now it's I'm yellin' over her, she yellin' over me
All that that means is neither of us is listening

And what's even worse?
That we don't even remember why we're fighting
So both of us are mad for

Nothing, fighting for
Nothin', crying for
Nothing, whoa

But we won't let it go for
Nothing, no not for
Nothing, this should be
Nothing to a love like what we got

Oh baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
Can't sleep through the pain
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
Oh no no no

And it gets me upset
Girl when you're constantly accusing
Askin' questions like you already know
We're fighting this war
Baby when both of us are losing
This ain't the way that love is supposed to go
Whoa, what happened to workin' it out?
We've fall into this place
Where you ain't backin' down and I ain't backin' down
So what the hell do we do now?

It's all forNothing,
fighting forNothing,
crying forNothing,
whoa
But we won't let it go for
Nothing, no not for
Nothing, this should be
Nothing to a love like what we got

Oh baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
Can't sleep through the pain
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me

Oh no no noOh, baby this love ain't gonna be perfect
Perfect, perfect, oh oh
And just how good it's gonna be
We can fuss and we can fight
Long as everything's all right between us
Before we go to sleep
Baby, we're gonna be happy, oh

Baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
Can't sleep through the pain
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
Oh no no no

sicksicksick

2009-04-06T14:30:00.002+08:00

i'm on two days mc guys (:
yahoo! sick! thanks to shaun who passed it to me and firdaus.
alright first of all thank you to firdaus who pay for my share. you know what.
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!! (((:
secondly, thank you to kenneth for slapping me on friday during recess.

this is what happen. we were talking about smoking.
then kenneth was like amirah ask me ask me.
me: then i was like i know you do.
kenneth: no you ask
me: okay, you don't
kenneth: ask me ask me
me: okay, so do you smoke?
kenneth: *slap across my left cheek*
no! do i look like a smoker to you? huh huh huh?

lol. i feel like biting his hand. lol
no fruits day last week. instead, it's milk day. eew!

feeling damn sick now :/
i feel like putting my nose in the fridge.

NO SCHOOL FOR ME TOMORROW!!!! (:

boring at home. need to do my f&n. damn lazy!

the old me is dead and gone dead and gone (:
i turn my head to the east i don't see nobody by my side i turn my head to the west still nobody in sight so i turn my head to the north, swallow that pill that they call pride the old me is dead and gone, the new me will be alright ((((:

i have the feeling that i don't need you by my side anymore. (:

i got to start studying for mid-year.
if you should know, my studies are going down.
i don't know why ):
i feel so stupid now.

my f&n, worse.
even the new student is faster than me ):
damn! that new student is not that new though :/

got to go. bye (:
iloveyou <3

the old me is dead and gone

2009-04-06T14:28:00.001+08:00

Chorus:

(Justin Timberlake):
Ooooooo
I've been travelin
On this road to long
Just trying to find
My way back home
The old me
Is dead and gone
Dead and gone
Ooooooo
I've been travelin
On this road to long
Just trying to find
My way back home
The old me
Is dead and gone
Dead and gone

(T.I.)
Ever had one of dem days
U wish woulda stayd home
Run into a group of niggas
Getting they hate on
U walk by
They get wrong u reply
Then shit get blown
Way outta proportion
Way past discussion
Just u against them,
Pick one then rush em
Figure u get your hair?
That next
They don't wanna stop
There now they bussin
Now u gushin, ambulance
Rushin u to the hospital
With a bad concussion
Plus ya hit 4 times
Plus it hit ya
Spine paralyzed waist down
Now ya wheel chair bound
Nevermind that now
U lucky to be alive,
Just think it all started u
Fussin with 3 guys
Now ya pride in the way
But ya pride is the way u
Could fuck around
Get shot die anyday
Niggas die
Every day all over
Bull shit dope money dice
Game ordinary hood shit
Could this be
Cuz of hip hop music
Or did the ones
With the good sense
Not use it
Usually niggas
Don't kno what to do
When their back
Against the wall
So they just start shootin
For red or for blue
Or for blo I guess,
From Bankhead
Or from your projects
No more stress,
Now I'm straight,
Now I get it now I take
Time to think,
Before I make mistakes
Just for my familys sake
That part of me left yesterday
The heart of me is strong today
No regrets I'm blessed to say
The old me dead and gone away.

[ T.I. Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
(Chorus)

(T.I.)
I aint never been scared,
I lived through tragedy
Situation coulda been dead
Lookin back at it
Most of that shit
Didn't even have to happen
But u don't think about it
When u out there trappin
In apartments hangin
Smokin and rappin
Niggas start shit didn't
Next thing ya kno we cappin
Get locked up
Then didn't even get mad
Now think about damn
What a life I had
Most of that shit
Look back just laugh
Some shit
Still look back just sad
Maybe my homboy
Till be around
Had I not
Hit the nigga
In the mouth that time
I won that fight, I lost that war
I can still see my nigga
Walkin out that door
Whoda thought I'd never see
Philant no more
Got enough dead homies
I don't want no more
Cost a nigga his job,
Cost me more
Ida took that ass-whoopin
Now for sure
Now think before I risk my life
Take them chances to get my stripe
A nigga put his hands on me alright
Otherwise stand there
Talk shit all night
Cuz I hit you, you sue me,
I shoot you, get locked up, who me?
No more stress, now I'm straight,
Now I get it now I take
Time to think
Before I make mistakes
Just for my familys sake
That part of me left yesterday
The heart of me is strong today
No regrets I'm blessed to say
The old me dead and gone away.

(Chorus)

(J.T.)
I turn my head to the east
I don't see nobody by my side
I turn my head to the west
Still nobody in sight
So I turn my head to the north,
Swallow that pill
That they call pride
The old me is dead and gone,
The new me will be alright
I turn my head to the east
I don't see nobody by my side
I turn my head to the west
Still nobody in sight
So I turn my head to the north,
Swallow that pill
That they call pride
The old me is dead and gone,
The new me will be alright

it has been so long baby ):

2009-04-02T20:00:00.003+08:00

wow it has been so long since i update my blog. two weeks?
someone in class doesn't want to talk to me becaise i didn't update my blog :/
argh hahaha very childish but cute (: right AELFIRA?
wow so last two weeks has been so busy. VERY i mean. ):
TIREDTIREDTIRED! so during the holidays was super hectic. monday malay mock exam. paper one was horrible. wrote out of point ): damn. sad. pull my paper one marks down. got scolded for not having the chop on my dictionary. :/
so tuesday was listening comprehension. damn tired. waste my one hour :/
daryl was away for camp till wednesday. so he's busy ):
wednesday, he was back. yay! he just got back in the afternoon.
so that wednesday i got last minute movie tickets! dragonball.
kenneth can't, denise can't, daryl can't, and luckily hidayah can make it. woo :/
lucky! so meet at five-thirty. no wait she reached at six. haha nevermind. so watched. we plan to sleep if it's boring. THANK YOU HIDAYAH FOR ACCOMPANYING ME ((((:
it was great (: so before that i've math lesson. tired! thursday math lesson but skip. friday, i'm free (: saturday was f&n day. boring. sunday was CIP. make us come so early and it only start at twelve. what the fuck! tiring day! shall not explain further. monday school start. hehe. school school school. boring.
now i'm watching don't forget the lyrics. there's this song a guy always sing to me on the phone. let me hold your hand. )))):>
so this week was a drag too. mock exam! was horrible! monday was science and english. tuesday was math and malay for the sec 5s. play cheat. hahaha anyway that saturday at commonwealth secondary school was fun! really. not telling you! after that went to study with kenneth, firdaus, syafiq, zasli and willy. fun! firdaus told syafiq that i call grase a maid! did not!!!!! haha they laugh at me cos' i can't swim!
lol so today benedict message me suddenly. thank you for the gift!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENEDICT! (((:
it's his birthday yesterday. yes, on the first (((:
daryl lie to me! say he's in art club and tracks last year! argh bite him.
hehehe ((((: alright got to continue with f&n. see you
iloveyou ((((: <3

again

2009-03-16T22:41:00.002+08:00

pictures again

2009-03-16T22:31:00.003+08:00

let's add some pictures

2009-03-16T22:01:00.004+08:00

how down can i feel?

am i human or not?

not. sigh.

why don't i think before i speak?

FUCK!

i don't spare a thought for others.

what are mouth, and ears for?

what's my brain for?

what are freinds for? :/ alright alright. stop emoing

i brought this upon myself i guess.

enough already.

i'm vexed enough.

i just hope things will ge better ):

this this this.

2009-03-07T21:10:00.012+08:00

who could have imagine life is so great, not :/

life is so colourful (: that's love <3
isnt the picture beautiful?

alright, not really. sigh

i think love and life is like a ball. it goes round and round.

it just revolves. so i treat you like a ball.

okay now all pictures are beautiful (:

go check them out at photobucket.

i was browsing through my images folder

and i was reminded by the tomes where i had so much fun.

yay! prom night to outings. so much fun.

here goes a great picture minus some missing people.

i don't know where they go.

huiyin, siyin, daryl. where are you guys?

hey hey hey

2009-03-07T15:08:00.002+08:00

hey hey hey! (:
it's a saturday. another boring day ):
need to complete my f&n.
)))))))))):

so yesterday was cross-country.
super tired.
he first person i saw in the morning was donovan. boring :/
i couldn't recognise him until he started talking nonsense.
nyeh. so he just came back from fishing. asked me about school and the new student
boring right?
waited for the three to reach. first was malisah, then ain, and then aelfira.
so long. then went to the place to assemble. super far. i think ten minutes walk.
i'm so lazy to elaborate.
next time alright?
see you

iloveyou (:
amirah <3

hellohellohello

2009-03-05T15:00:00.002+08:00

i'm back!
yay at las my blog is colourful again (:
i've not blog for so long already. thursday today.
didn't go to school. sick ):
so let's talk about monday.
monday, no malay atp! yay (:
i've not been opening my eyes wide lately.
my brain too.
been super super super tired.
so after school went to eat with ain and aelfira. malisah went home.
went to eat pizza hut (: sudden craving for it.
then we eat and eat and eat. talk talk talk. haha. it was fun.
it has been so long since i had so much fun.
isawyoutoday (: you were just behind me. i wish you'd stay forever. maybe for now.
haha so. after that we went home. haha.
tuesday we had cme.
miss chan let us listen to jumper from third eye blind wuth the lyrics.
i don't know why but it just attract my attention.
why? i don't know. maybe the lyrics.
if you do not want to see me again, i would understand.
alright so we are to find a line from this lyric that means a lot to us.
well everyone i know has got a reason to say. put the past away.
you could cut ties with all the lies you've been living in.
sigh. i wish you'd understand too.
so wednesday was another day. didn't do p.e due to back problem.
had practical test. was fun.
ishpal 'stole' my fun for one period.
blame me for being careless.
so we were early for practical that day. went to collect our equipments.
i collect lighter, goggles, the three powder for our test.
was fun, but without mrA.
so after that was english.
miss lee was like how's lesson with your ex-lover in class.
i went quiet. what should i say? should i tell her how happy, sad, angry and awkward it feels having him around?
so i ket quiet.
kenneth asked if i wanted to share money for ehem ehem ehem.
i said okay! my job was to ask benedict, marc and hong tai.
i've not even asked benedict anything but he's already smiling :/
scared? not. just weird. haha.
so i was calling for him
me: ben. ben. ben.
benedict: -silent-
me: benedict.
benedict: yeah? (smiling)
me: kenneth asked if you want to share money to buy ehem ehem ehem a birthday present. (looking down in case he laughed at me)
benedict: oh okay (still smiling)
me: oh yeah, ask marc and hong tai as well
benedict: okay (still smiling, half laughing. i wonder why)
hehasbrowneyes ((((((((((((:
so after that i went home.
today, nothing happen except that i've tuition later.
my tutor refused to cancel or postpone it. shucks. nevermind.
nothing else to say.
see you guys at japanese garden tomorrow (:

iloveyou (:

.amirah (:

williwillwewillyou

2009-02-27T20:54:00.005+08:00

yet, another person complain about the font.
alright. change!
wah my stupid blog damn fucking ugly. not showing my layout.
it shows bandwidth exceeded. somthing wrong ):

so let's start from thursday.
mrA didn't come to school. nyeh.
so first two periods was physics then social studies. draggy man. damn lag.
i got 7.5 out ou twenty for my geog test. even got 'good effort'
know why? my first time doing my geography test.
yay! we did it we did it we did it, yeah!
so after that was physics. lol. sleepy but can laugh.
i don't know. seems to be very very very moody nowadays.
old amirah is back. the moody one. boring.
sorrry friends if i'm always givingt that long face and attitude. maybe some should know why.
so after recess was f&n.
miss william was looking for new student. he didn't come.
she was like where is andrew?
dead, i replied. damn bad of me. sorry new student.
so after that math. was it another good day for math?
after math was fun. andrew, louis, ishpal, terence and i. all disturb andrew.
anyway mrs ng was like andrew pay cash for exams?
then andrew ong was like huh what?
they were like not you. andrew yeo, the real man. haha.
haha andrew was like i want to go to to poly, then university. bla bla bla.
i was like oh i know which school. school on how to be a man.
to be exact, how to be a real man hahahaha. okay much to write.
smack him with ruler again. four against one. haha (((:
cannot remember.
i wanted to drop combined humanities but it was too late. shucks :/
so after math was english.
my comprehension test marks was a shock for me. first time in history. the worse result of all. i'm not ashamed to tell i gof 16.5 out of fifty for the test. i was super upset. where did i go wrong? sighsighsigh. that was the last period. then went to look for mr mak to ask about equations. damn man. i cannot study in a group. distracted. so study one on one with him. only then i understand.
met up with daryl the monster after that. went to take notes. study study study. i feel so bad. he readily met me after his school and taught me some stuff. walk in the drizzling rain. both of us were tired like shit. the first time i saw him i felt like laughing. which i did. his hair lol. hahahahaha.
he laghed at my hair too. okay, we're even now. so accompany malisah to the bus stop whilst waiting for daryl to reach. 196 reached. malisah board, daryl alight haha. daryl went up to get notes, changed and wow he smell as if he just bathe :/ lol. so i waited downstairs. lol quite fast eh. he disturbed the bicycle shop uncle. nyeh. so he brought down super thick notes down. physics, chemistry and social studies. no geography eh. lol nevermind. went to the mama shop hehe. daryl bought mars and wa wa milk. lol i'm still thinking what to buy. hehe so bought paddle pop. i'm being called 'small kid'. nevermind at least not old. so walked back to look for a table. walk walk walk to 413. or is it 431? not sure. sat there. study study study. i think he can be a teacher. lol. smart yo. haha. he can teach me math, chemistry and physics in half an hour. lol. damn good. then he wrote something on my sticky notepad. tuition for one and a half hour, seventy-five dollars. notes, twenty-five dollars. tolerate me, priceless. total, hundred dollars plus plus plus. lol. u.o.m (you owe me) haha. like loanshark you know. he looked at my calculator as if he never use before. haha he got no idea how to ue. so do i. lol. then call ben ho to come down. walk back to the shop. he bought mars bar and we sit at this place and talk. talk about the post-mortem. correct spelling? aiya same la. okay okay correct. hehe. damn disgusting.talk talk talk till seven. need to leave. so they send me to the bus stop. woo. thank you thank you. got home, bathe read through some notes and retire.

so today, it's a friday! happy birthday bettina. although we don't talk. so today wasn't as fun as yesterday. i saw mrA MOTHER! she's driving towards not sure. not good in direction. lol. towards dover, queensway i think. lol. lol so form there i know he's in school. so so so i reach just on time. tired man. got school song today. boring. so first two period is math. lol teacher is tired. like zombie. then bullshit in class lol. thanks to sahdique. so mrs ng was like, new student i heard you want to transfer to another class. he said no, which is actually is a yes. gayness. lol so after that was chemistry. there's a test. sad ): i regret! forgot which is which. crycrycry. i wasted daryl's time. sorry monster. my god ): then after that was recess. i want mrA bag. that's the one i wanted ): alright so f&n, assembly and home. nothing much. firdaus told bendict that he already taught me how to disturb benedict. lol. my left arm pain ): the joints there.

anyway terence don't know how to put on name tag. lol. what a shame. so i help him to pin it. he was like don't poke me ah. lol. then during recess he came to me and said he knows hom to put on name tag already lol. got two some more. haha. then he said his name is sexy. benedict was like my name more sexy. got cntik in my name. LOL! haha.

alright have fun.
.amirah (:
iloveyou <3

vitaminsfatsmineralscarbohydratesproteins

2009-02-25T17:12:00.002+08:00

okay lame amirah
sigh tomorrow is the last day for us to submit our research.
then continue with development.
i wonder how the new student will cope.
sigh. today is another tiring day but i was laughing non-stop (:

0811am, 250209
firdaus message-d me. he was late for school again.
unfortunately, he can't climb. boo hoo hoo.

daryl is lame. AGAIN! :/
'it's bright like day', he said.
oh my god, of course it is. it's only eight plus in the morning.

oh well so first period was cme, again.
got back our paper on resilience today.
I GOT AN A FOR THE FIRST TIME!
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (((:
want to know what is it about?
okay. hold on

topic on resilience.
alright new vocabulary (:

okay this is what i wrote.

overall, i've been very happy. only two years back something reallymake me lose all m hopes and confidence. i lose all interest in studies. my dad passed away on that very year. it was a shocking one for me as he has been very healthy. he has no medical history. i still remember i just got home from school. then dad came out of the room and asked me to sit with him. i did. he didn't say anything. he only asked which panadol is which. i told him. he popped it in his mouth, fell to the ground and he's gone (i was speechless. it happened in front of my very eyes). that was the last time i ever sat with him. from there, i feel so devastated. not wanting to go to school or go out. this eventually led to depression. i felt like a crazy girl who just lose my love one. i was warded in hospital. friends, family and hospital staffs gave me hope. from there, i picked myself up. it was too late. when i came back to school, i'm a month away from n levels. didn't do well and retained. did my secondary four education again last year. i found new friends. my two-years (stupid) boyfriend left me. i still feel alright (anything goes). at least, my friends are there for me. now, i'm back for my secondary five and doing well for studies (:

(i made new friends throughout the year)

sad enough?
alright, so that's cme.
during malay, i've another test. aiya

then followed by math.
anyway each lesson i went to the toilet to wash my face. sleepy!
haha so math was alright. jokes again
mrs ng doesn't know how to get to clementi town secondary. haha :/
find it funny. lol she needs a GPS badly!
so math was embarrasing. i wasso tired that i almost fell asleep.
mrs ng saw and keep asking me questions and i asked her back.
blame me for being sleepy haha.
at least i know how to answer hem with people telling me what she's saying.
haha. kwang kwang kwang

then recess. hooray (((((:
eat chicken rice with kenneth (:
long queue man. feel like cutting queue.
but did not. good girl (:
eat super fast becausethe bell is going off soon.
hehehehehehehe.
then later on we have chemistry.
lol funny shit. i went to the bookshop and stay with andrew, and gang.
andrew got bullied. he went to the chemistry lab alone and we stood there waiting. terence was like, ashraf, come back! haha
then andrew was like i heard that. hahaha.
very funny. now i know why he's homo. haha.
then walked with ishpal to see this girl. haha.

okay okay enough. so went back to class.
mr say is in class. this ex new towner.
he's so fierce. lol. suddenly scold te class.
then i askedto go to the toilet.
i read reader's digest the whole time. haha
then terence call me in class.
hello, i'm from mediacorp doind a survey.
lol i know it's him. yesterday he was like i call you but your phone is off.
hahaha. louise and aaron laughe at him haha.

english is another relief teacher.
lol damn old-fashioned. centre parting hahahaha.
i swear.
then asked kenneth to sit with me.
he was like don't want. later andrew look for me how? :/
slap you.
lol.

after school went back home straight.
lol wrong information on tuition. i thought it's today.
instead, it''s tomorrow.
hahaha. blur as ever.

alright got to continue with f&n
see you!

iloveyou (:
<3>

nani nani poo poo ((((((((((((:

2009-02-24T21:05:00.006+08:00

hehe. hello friends (:
if you're not, hello stranger.

yeah yeah yeah. good week for me.
except for this particular person who make my day so $%@#!^&*
sigh. damn cb i tell you. let him die :/
i only asked if he wants sweet.
instead he glare at me and say- no i don't want!
die stupid die!
knnbccb!

overall, it has been a good day.
i admit.
mrB is back!
yay! so monday, erm can't remember.
only that kenneth is emo-ing.

ishpal aka air batu kepal keep bullying me
terence also!
nyeh! andrew ong, normal. no expression :/
hehehehe! ((((((:

don't care man!
so today, tuesday,
we had pe on the first two periods. funny man
frisbee yo!
hong tai and i got no idea how to play frisbee.
louise was like wow amirah, so relax. you look so bored haha.
louise is like one frisbee championship man. super good!!!
mrA didn't do pe. my friends were like, wow the letter comes with an envelope man.
then i say yeah, quite well prepared. aiya always la.
but still he's not fat. don't know why.
daryl, you watch out!

hehe so after pe was cme. more syiok. wrote something about resilience though.
the twins write super long. lol
super tired today. can only open one eye in class.
i think my teacher saw. sorry.
that was during math.
after cme is recess. followed by music. cannot use music room.
miss cheong laptop is down.
neh. then malay and math.

after math tuition. now i need to continue with my f&n coursework. see you all (:

iloveyou <3
amirah (:

we cry

2009-02-21T21:03:00.004+08:00

Together we cry...
Together we cry...
Jenny was a poor girl
Living in a rich world
Named her baby Hope when she was just fourteen
She was hoping for a better world
For this little girl
But the apple doesn't fall too far from the tree
Well she gets that call
Hope's too far gone
Her baby's on the way
But nothing left inside
Together we cry!

What about the junk head
Could have gone the whole way
Lighting up the stage trying to get a deal
Now he's lighting up the wrong way
"Something for the pain!"
Man you wanna see this kid he was so fuckin' unreal
When he gets that call
He's too far gone
To get it together to sing one song
They won't hear tonight
The words of a lullaby

Together we cry...
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Together we cry...
Whoa oh whoa oh whoa
Together we cry...
Oh we cry we cry we cry
Together we cry...Oh we cry we cry
Whoa oh whoa oh whoaOh...

Mary's ambitious
She wanna to be a politician
She been dreaming about it since she was a girl
She thought that she'd be the one who could change the world
Always trying to pave the way for women in a... man's world
But life happened, house, kids, 2 cars, husband hits the jar, checks that don't go very far now
Now she in it can't change it, she keeps her mind on her wages
The only rattling cages!

Together we cry
Together we cry

There's so much sad gonna flood the ocean
We're all in tears for the world is broken
Together we cry!

There comes a time when every bird has to fly
At some point every rose has to die
It's hard to let your children go
Leave homeWhere they go?
Who knows!
Getting drunk
Getting stoned
All alone
Teach a man to fish
You'll feed him never lie
You show your kids the truth
Hope they never lie
Instead of reading in a letter that they've gone to something better"
Bet your sorry now!

I won't be coming home tonight
"I'm sick of looking for those heroes in the sky
To teach us how to fly

Together we cry!
Together we cryTogether we cry
There's so much sad gonna flood the ocean
We're all in tears for the world is broken
Together we cry!

ithoughtyouweretheone ):

2009-02-21T20:17:00.004+08:00

my day isn't as bad though.
i've yet make friends with my new classmate
ithoughtwewerefriends):
alright thinking of it already make me sad.
so friday wasn't quite a bad day
only that i've to complete my coursework as soon as possible.
cannot make it man ))))))))))))):
i passed my math test again.
thank god, i told myself (:

why? why are you so cold and unfriendly towards me?
mrB hasn't been in school for two days. haha actually firdaus make my day (:
firdaus: benedict keeps piglets a a pet
amirah: huh? piglets? must be a pig now?
firdaus: no, it's small
amirah: woah, fuck? how come?
firdaus: the pig looks like hamster
bloodyhell! think and think for the answer.
amirah: that guinea pig, idiot
firdaus: yeah, ginny pig
amirah: it's guinea pig!
lol i should ask benedict on monday if he rear pigs at home. must be a big house until can rear pigs. tsk tsk

so after school went to eat at the canteen. cannot digest ):
waiting for fun concert to start!
yay!
mrA was there. unexpected!
so sat next to shaun, with firdaus.
aelfira so drama.
she messaged me
aelfira: oh find new friends already
amirah: nomore seats there
aelfira: oh like that. don't friend you. (wait was it don't want to talk to you?)
amirah: really
didn't reply lol

iseeyousittingallalonethere.
whywon'tyoucomeandsitwithme, or
talktome?
howiwishyou'dtalktome

wishful thinkings!
daryl made me 'cry'!
how could you daryl!

daryl: my whole body aching and i feel like an alien. haha help me!
amirah: massage! (((: why alien?
daryl: haha cuz my whole body aching tl the extend i think it's not my body. haha. are you an alien too? alien elmo
amirah:lol, i'm not. although my body is aching, i'll never say i'm an alien :D
daryl: but you are. you look like one. hehe i'm so evil
amirah: i'm glad you know. oh now i look like an alien. you also look like one alien
daryl: wa how did i offend you. now i become alien. haha
amirah: lol yeah. you just said i look like an alien. so you must look like an alien too because you're my 'boyfriend'
daryl:aaaaaaaah! i want a divorce! i didn't know i married an alien
amirah: wah. how could you ):
daryl: haha told you i am evil. muahahaha
amirah: ): sad. heartbroken. break to million pieces
daryl: ok don't cry i take back my words (:
amirah: got such thing? can take back tears?
daryl: too bad you after swallow it down
*tsk tsk. this kind of people also have*
so this list continue

haha.
ANYWAY DARYL AND I HAS NO WHATSOEVER THING BETWEEN US, IF YOU THINK CROOKED!
sigh ):
ifonlyyou'll talktomelikehowdaryldid
sigh no more nomore.
shattered )))))))))))))))):

andrew ong bought me a million hearts from some warehouse. lol
damn fake
must have some dent, or tear haha.

lol terence another funny guy.
amirah later you and me go watch fun concert together okay. you and me.
haha. i'm cool with that. anything goes
ifonlyyousaidthattome ):
imaginehowhappyicanbe
youneverspareathoughtforme ):
iknowyoudon'tlovemeanymore. ))))))))))))):

saturday is a boring day, i tell you
i've not watch movie for so long!!!!!!!!
don't have the time and the company.
no mood to watch movies anymore.
heartbroken.
break into a million pieces

<3>
iloveyou(:

sighsighsish ))))))):

2009-02-19T20:09:00.002+08:00

i've not been feeling good these days.
fuck!
we've a new student in class.
can't recall his name because we don't talk.
i only know he dyed his hair reddish-brown

wait, what's his name.
oh andrew yeo.
i've yet make friends with him.
i heard he's friendly. wow amazing.
the only guy in f&n.
he wouldn't talk to us.
hehe. i should start trying to make friends with him.

kenneth, kenneth, kenneth!
sorry can't view the entry,
but i did wrote about you ):

sigh. mrB didn't come today, yesterday too
mrA is back. sigh )):

let me tell you about today okay.
wah super unlucky!

first thing in the morning i see mrA
wasn't that bad till recess.
came up a little late bell ring.
then need to stand outside
LUCKILY, MISS CHEONG help us.
THANK YOU MISS CHEONG (:
yay then after she told miss christne tan, we could go back to class and sit
damn unlucky, then mrs lily ng asked why i'm in the hall. sad ):
i told her i was with miss cheong.
& miss cheong explained it to her. argh
then went to sit behind the new guy, andrew.
hadi laughed at me!
not telling you why.
then finally our class can go back to class.
bad luck to new student.
he got caught for not tucking in his shirt and not having a name tag.
sad for him. got rant at!!!
then go to the bookshop with mrs ng to order name tag, i guess. tsk tsk
amazingly, he can find the f&n students in the computer lab two.

HELLO NEW STUDENT ((:
NICE TO MEET YOU

so after that i've atp.
aelfira went to take some test. haha
in between there's something weird and funny happened.
shhhh

ended and when to eat with ain and aelfira at jurong point.
i saw WEICHUAN, CHEE YONG AND KENNIE in the canteen!
wanted to go there but mrA was there. so forget it
when i went back to the canteen to look for them, gone!
they are not there anymore.
chee yong told me they are in the art room. forget it i'm already in the bus.

ihopemrBwillcometomorrow((((:

iloveyou <3

hellohellohello (:

2009-02-13T20:27:00.006+08:00

okay, i've people complaining about the font size. hehe. hidayah! oh complain. nyeh.

alright alright scool has been so fun for me (:
yayyyyyy! it's friday the thirteenth today. what the hell. so lame.
okay so i left my phone in class during recess.
shall not talk about that anymore.

luckily found my phone (:

yoohoooooo (((:

2009-02-06T21:22:00.007+08:00

hello people i'm back (:
i miss you guys.
argh anyway, i miss my friend, bathari.
she already went back. wonder when she will be coming back.
sigh ):
can't meet her for the last time.

again another busy week. i've been failing my test for all subjects
& i really mean all.
no joke man
chemistry, i got 4 out of thirty. no wait twenty-five. not sure

physics more syiok, seven out of forty.

english fourteen out of thirty. due to misunderstanding of question.

math eighteen out of twenty-five ((((:

anyway today went to ply badminton!!!
with aelfira, ain, and malisah.
wah i tell you, aelfira is a big bully!
she's my 'coach' and i'm her student.
argh evil!!!!!! (:

sigh. so today was another busy day.
mondaymondaymonday.
what a day. i've atp for malay. tired!
monday is like a banding day.
go up, go down. everywhere.

so yanrong told me he got himself into some minor bike accident.
what the fuck.

me: how are you?
yr: it feels good
me: what the hell? go injure yourself again
yr: haha okay.
:/ :/ :/

lol get well soon.
he said he's limping like an old man now. lol

so i see andrew just got back from japan.
his parents gave him a great trip there for failing his o levels.
wow! so fun.
sigh i thought he won't be coming back at all.
you now, plane crash?
(:
ooppss.
rich people. tsktsktsk.

FIRDAUS IF YOU'RE READING THIS, PLEASE BRING YOUR ASS BACK TO SCHOOL! YOU'RE NEEDED IN SCHOOL!!!

lol. anyway school was fun.
mr mak things after his haircut he looks cool and fierce.
so not!

tuition tomorrow!!!!
sigh. boring boring. waiting for pe tomorrow.
woo ((:

iloveyou (:

with me ((:

2009-01-28T20:13:00.002+08:00

okay okay i'm back people. the other day my entry got deleted.
so irritating ):
FUCK!

so that monday, few days back school was as normal.
school school school.
study study study
homework homework homework
coursework coursework coursework.
that's what i do everyday.
lol boring right?
what to do :

anyway that monday, after school went with kenneth and willy. what bullies!
lol (: supposed to go and study but but but... didn't ):
@#$$%^&#!!@@#&^
lol. pity kenneth.
okay okay. so went to boon lay secondary school to watch badminton tournament.
let me tell you. it's super lousy man ):
my cat plays better than them!
argh anyway it lasted less than half an hour- for don't know how many sets.
lol. kenneth went back first to change.
then ah then ah, we forgot to call him after the leaving school.

willy: hello where are you?
kenneth: i'm at home. eating potato chips while waiting for you
willy: what the fuck?
kenneth: i asked you to call me what.
willy: where got?
then it suddenly dawned on me that kenneth did ask us to call but we forgot!
sorry kennth ):
willy: okay quick

then kenneth came down, with drinks ((:
yay thank you thank you (((:
lol. so we walked to the library first.
returned books for kenneth's sister. rawr!!!
then walk to jurong point. suppose to eat but need to wait for IAN CHAN!
lol. yak yak yak. so after that we went to eat.
PRAWN PORRIDGE HERE I COME, BABY!
i ate the most and the slowest.

chicken mcnugget!
sigh then it's already six. so have to go home.
tuition!
wait was it monday?
no no wednesday. sorry ):

haha so willy and ian went home together
& kenneth and i go the other way.
raining!
then kenneth offered his d&t file to me.
SWEET!
but turned it down.
his cap? turned it down too. ANYWAY THANK YOU KENNETH TAN YONG XIANG ((((((:

yesterday message-d firdaus.
shush. only the both of us know ((((:

so today andrew-a ong sounds like me, chubacca.
he's chubacca 2, the girl version.
lol.he's so funny (:
he talk and talk and talk to me.
then suddenly he said 'eh where's benedict?'
lol lol lol. blur!

so on my way out, terence came in!
what the fuck. after school then come :\
lol. he smiled to me and i said hello (:

heheheheheheh!
so took bus to interchange, train and meet my mom!!!!
eat eat eat!

iloveyou! (:
<3

rainbow is so colourful
redyellowgreenbluevioletindigoorange

wait how does indigo looks like?
please tell me (:

see you soon!!!

with me ((:

2009-01-28T20:13:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Koc_c5tBU_E

just remembered

2009-01-26T19:29:00.003+08:00

anyway did i tell you i remember how benedict looks like after so long seeing him without any hair on his head?
lol. how mean can i be?
actually i forgat what i wanted to say.

i seriously can't remember what i wanted to say )))))))))))):

how can i move on if i'm still in love with you ((:
cos' if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me :D

sigh i don't know who i'm missing now. you or you?
or you?

oh yes my resolutions for 2009, i know it's almost february. who cares?
1. forget andrew yeo (which i half did)
2. be nicer to friends
3. be nicer to a math students and make friends with them
4. stop laughing at people
5. pass my o levels with dropping confetties
6. lose weight
7. STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!!!!
8. & lastly, it's within the four walls and three friends ((:
iloveyou ((:

baby, i wish i can forget you soon and move on with life; like how you did.
move on and fall in love with someone else.
someone who doesn't tell me who i can talk or be friends with.

how can i move on when i'm still in love with you ):

i wish i talk to you and make friends with you soon :D

hello baby (:

2009-01-17T21:43:00.000+08:00

it has been so long since i blog. i've been too busy with school. math, coursework, and everything is stressing m up, especially combined humanities. I saw my friends got their result the other day.sigh. Congratulations to those wo made it ((:

stupid microsoft word! #$@^&(!@&&**

okay okay so now it' working. sorry for not updating. too lazy. anyway to haha, i'm updating now!

so i'm very busy, if you can see now. ANYWAY, HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO ALL ((:
sigh. i'm so bored at home. all i can do is to finish up my f&n coursework, which i don't feel like doing.

again i'm saying this, i witness my friends getting their results. i'm the one who'sfeeling nervous.
So when mrs alison cheong announced the names of people who did well, i was so happy, sad.
CONGRATULATIONS TO WEI CHUAN AND ANDREA (((: :DDD
to those who didn;t do well, you guys already did your best ((:
to bathari, please come back soon. i'm already missing you )):
sigh so roey didn't make it ): i felt so sad for him and scared at the same time.
thinking what if i can't make it.

andrew too didn't make it. ): sigh. i thought he could do it, but no. so i was quite upset for him too.
at first, i thought he made it because he was smiling, but did not.
i don't know if he's sad or happy.
so the next few day i saw him in school.
no hi-s or bye-s. was very upset. we're friends no more. doesn't matter anymore. his hair looks nice from the front but i swear to God his back is ugly. that's like the second time i see him with an ugly hairstyle.

anyway, back to results day. Mrs ng told us that she doesn't want to see anyone from her class to repeat. now i'm trying very hard to do well so i won't come back to new town for the second time.
thank god kennie is not repeating. otherwise andrew will come bck and be in my class, which i don't want to.

anyway i'm quite happy with school now (:
my classmates are not as bad as what i thought.
right andrew-a? haha. so terence isn't that bad too. at first, no one wants to speak to me.

so the other day there's pe but i didn't do. thanks to flu.
now they call me CHUBACCA!
so ishpal asked if i've done my english comprehension.
me being deaf was like what dentist?
so benedict was laughing at me :/
we don't talk, only laugh at each other.
the other day mrs ng was like i want to cut my hair like malisah.
they were like no, ugly.
then benedict was like cut bald like me.
lol lol lol i was like laughing.
no actually whole class.
haha. lame. dota freak.

firdaus is so evil to me. disown him. throw him i the bin. DELETE!
i've been laughing alot lately.
mrs ng isn't as fierce as a lion as i thought.
isn't as scary as i thought.
at last, i'm out of holiday mood ((:
hooray to me.
my voice is coming back to normal ((:
yay again!
lost my stupid math file!
i handed it up but it went missing.
sad to me )):
oh well math vectors test was horrigible for me. got three out of twenty marks. thanks to carelessness and blindness!

okay okay will update again soon!
see you &
love you ((:

tomorrow

2008-12-21T21:49:00.000+08:00

hee ((:
sigh it has been so long since i update.
very lazy, tired and sick.
went to buy books, uniform and shoes today.
then straight down to orchard.

i see the same guy at the m1 phone shop.

lol many times already.
had a bad cramp and back ache.
)))))))))):
can't wait for school to reopen.
shucks.
study study study
dota, dota, dota.
boring. mommy's coming back (:
yay yay can't wait for the soft toy,camel
can sing and walk!
woah
yay to khabir and i!
(((:
can't sleep ):
i keep thinking of the pixon phone ):
wait.
i show you the phone
eh cannot show man
next time maybe.
hope i get one.
there's a red one!!!!!!!!
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

today was better than yesterday, yesteryear ((:

2008-12-19T00:05:00.000+08:00

oh my god. i can't believe i pass!
even though i was aiming for an eight, i think it's good enough for me (:
what more can i ask for.
yay samsung pixon here i come!
i hope so
it was so unexpected!

already stress about next year!
nevermind work hard!
i'm so happy!!!!!!!!

i'll post a longer one soon!

today.

2008-12-17T23:35:00.000+08:00

tomorrow will be getting our results.
i hope i can do it ((:
i want that samsung pixon phone! badly
my fault is spoilt.
can't receive certain people messages.

my mom hasn't called for two days ):
tomorrow after i get my results i'll call her.
& message haqim, dawn, and many many more.
i'll meet my cow friend tomorrow.
he's going to rape my cow ):
evil right?
i'll bite his face off!
so now i won't be getting to enjoy looking at andrew's face for free now.
maybe when we're old, we'll meet each other again along the streets
no, maybe we'll meet on the road when his mercedes hit my porsche car.
wow dreamer!
haha thousand years man
maybe he's already so old that he can't stand straight anymore, and his ugly crumpled skin.
okay that's bad.
maybe he already has a wife, if he can find one :/
without any kids because he hates them
& find them irritating.
such an asshole.
even if he doesn't regard me as a friend now, i'll still do.
how nice can i be (((:

no matter how much i miss him, i'll never have him back in my life
i wish i don't see him again
he's such a heartbreaker, you see.
wasn't his fault actually.
no one understands,
other then the two of us
i guess no one will ever understand,'even i tried explaining to them.
because i know everyone's different
and the way they are taught by parents are different.
if i were his parents, i'll be proud of him
why?
becausee he's obedient and listens to his parents:
well maybe not all the time.
his mom said, leave her, he did
his mom said, break up with her, he did
his mom said, you two are different, he understands.
well, at least i know i use to date a super nice guy
& a super obedient son of the yeo's family.

but the thing is, i hate the fact when i have to let you go slowly,
bit by bit.
step by step.
it's painful, though
nevertheless, i'm in love with you once (:
& i truely enjoy it and tresure it.

"somehow i miss you"
i miss the time we had together
the time when you were next to me when i needed you
someone to hold to when i'm falling
someone to show me the right way
someone to talk to when i feel down.
someone who'll wipe away my tears when i cry
someone to hug when i'm sad
now all i have is the memories of you
& the letters you given me.
sigh it's all in the past now

well nothing i can do now. what's done is done.
cannot be undone
no point looking back and
dwell over things which are impossible to come true
look towards the future!
and work towards it! (((:

i love the way i am now!
cheers everyone!
good luck for results tomorrow ((:

iloveyou ((:
<3>

i'm back for the second time

2008-12-16T21:52:00.000+08:00

hello i'm back from jurong point. ate kfc with yanrong.

lol he said i'm shy?

nevermind. next time go cycling (((:

i'm lucky to have a cow friend ((:

so i realised some things cannot be taken for granted, or else one will regret it, even if it's not for the whole life.

on the eleventh my mom called.

it has been five days since i heard from her

she said she was sick ):

damn worried

i cooked on that day too.

all thanks to feroz haha. not telling you why.

i thought of becoming a change person now.

yes, much much more happier, cheerful, and bubbly.

i shall look forward for more change in my life.

no more dwelling about the past!

MOVE ON, amirah!

i tell myself

have a fun life, enjoy life ((:

so on the twelveth, we celebrate four people birthday.

shaun's, ben's, kenneth's and huiyin's.

was fun (((((((((((((((((((((:

before that i meet up with daryl first. suppose to come at twelve but he reached at 1240

so went to jurong point. got lost. thanks to the neww place

spend a lot today

went to buy a cake first.
daryl picked such a childish cake!

i'll show you the picture

soon!

then went to buy a book

"happiness now" by andrew matthews.

daryl was like 'aren't you happy enough?'

lol damn bastard

then went to eat.

we walk around the whole place and walk in circles,

just to look for delifrance

then i was like "eh don't go down! delifrance is up ahead"

then daryl wanted to kill me with the cake knife!

then went to delifrance. waiting to be seated

damn long lol

then we got a seat. yay!

when we got a seat, my chair got stuck! ccb!

boo!!! somehow not hungry anymore

ordered some egg filling with baguette but not available. so i had tuna.

we told the lady we wanted a set meal

but somehow we didn't get any soup of the day

when daryl asked, she said we ordered ala carte.

wtfwtfwtfwtfwtf

so no soup ):

it costs us a whopping $20.05

we shared the amount
paid, & left

daryl went to smoke and we talk about the past

& how sarah cause the rain whenever she sings

then that clown decided to take 30 to vivo. damn long

waited so long for the bus to arrive!

fuck!

at last, the bus reached. all daryl's fault!

we reached at 3.30

then all don't want to celebrate

all want to wait for zasli the sugar-daddy

huiyin and haikal need to leave early.

so we just celebrate

when we're done, he reached.

walk around vivo lol

i'm the only girl

went in motorola shop. lousy phone lol

then went to samsung shop. my dream phone!

innov8 ((:

went to buy nuts for my sister. my chestnut out of stock ):

then went to eat

damn noisy lol

then daryl went to take another chair and sit facing us. like one head gangster lol

went to buy a drink, spill the ice and buy some food

when i'm back, my drink is gone. went to get another one

daryl left after that to meet someone because he's leaving for bali the next day

then went to smoke. i mean them. ben went to shit

play pool. not talking about it.

so embarrassing

then danial my love came

the liar who told me there's a cold storage at pulau ubin

syah left without me.

it's okay, he needs to work

forgot to pay for the game lol

then on saturday went shopping!

with my sister and her friend

it was fun but tiring

i ate alot at ramen ten!

aiya i'm not elaborating it

on sunday went to vivo with siblings

aelfira's birthday!!!!

yay

so happy for her

i'm sorry i can't go to your birthday party

so today i ate alot again

yum yum

wanton noodles, macdonald's, yong tau foo, char kway teow,

& many many more. haha

stupidity, followed by disaster, desperation and finally wisdom. this will change someone in a natural process

never force change upon others because it doesn't help and they won't learn

haha so it has been so long since my siblings and i go out together. was fun actually. really. after a long time ((:

so today went to eat kfc with yanrong, my best cow partner

somehow we're in the same boat

because of him i realise it's important to leave the past behind and move on ((:

won't be posting tomorro. going to jb to eat!

yanrong, looking forward to go cycling with you soon (((:

see you((

i'll be back for more alright.

iloveyou <3

amirah ((:

hello ((: i miss you so much ((:

2008-12-16T13:12:00.000+08:00

hello (:

it has been so long since i blog. i bet it's gonna be a long entry today.

but first i'mgoing to meet yanrong first to eat (:
damn hungry. lucky he ask haha.
what should i eat?
yum yum. meeting him at five. it's 1637 now.

i shall eat my heart out. hungry man.
it feels as if i've not eaten for months

okay while waiting for time to pass by. i shall post something.
two more days to results.
scared man
so since friday i've been going out. damn tired i tell you.
friday celebrate someone's birthday
saturday go shopping
sunday go walk walk at vivo
today go eat.
tomorrow go jb at night.
thursday accompany my sister to the hospital for therapy and collect my results.
friday not sure yet.
what busy schedule.
lol ((:
i just hope i'll get to go to sec five.
i won't be seeing him again next year )):
SAD!

when i think back, do i deserve this?
sigh.
okay okay more to post when i'm backlater.
if not tomorrow!
((:
see you guys.
iloveyou <3

today (:

2008-12-08T15:17:00.000+08:00

haha today i'm so bored.
so decided to post some stuff from blogthings.com

Your Birthdate: August 19

You don't just believe in love at first site - you've experienced it.
You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter!
You are very prone to love - hate relationships.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1

You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

so bored; again.

2008-12-08T14:47:00.001+08:00

okay so let's do some survey i came across at dawn's blog. i just finish hanging the clothes. even though it's raining cats and dogs, rabbits and carrots, and etc.

okay nevermind. can't copy and paste. i'll copy and paste from friendster then

anyway, andrew and i are not talking through friendster again. even if we do, he'll reply me back with only one line. sigh

he blocked me in msn, so i didn't expect much. for now. maybe ):

"you change your mind,like a girl change her clothes"

sigh, that's so like andrew ):

i thought we could be best friends since he knew way too much about me, but it's just my imagination.

HAA IN YOUR FACE, AMIRAH!

anyway i'm not so hard up to be friends with him now.

i don't quite him now. maybe one day. who knows?

okay forget about that survey. can't copy and paste ):

sad-ed. anyway it's hari raya haji today, but i've to stay at home all alone.

jeez, should stop complaining

What Your Red Umbrella Says About You

When faced with adversity, you respond aggressively. A part of you enjoys being challenged.
You don't back down easily. You have the confidence and character to lead.

You are outrageously brazen with you ideas, opinions, and statements.
You'll say what you think, and no one will silence you!

On a rainy day: you should continue your plan to rule the world... while everyone stays home and naps

The Umbrella Test

so crushed

2008-12-07T21:20:00.000+08:00

I hung up

The phone tonight

Something happened

For the first time

Deep insideIt was a rush

What a rush'

Cause the possibility

That you would ever

Feel the same way

About me

It's just too much

Just too much

Why do I keep running

From the truth

All I ever think

About is you

You got me hypnotized

So mesmerized

And I just got to know

Do you ever think

When you're all alone

All that we can be

Where this can go

Am I crazyOr falling in love

Is it really

Just another crus

hDo you catch a breath

When I look at youAre you holding back

Like the way you do

'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away

But I know this crushAin't goin' awayGoin' away

Has it ever crossedYour mind

When were hangin'Spending time girl

Are we just friends

Is there moreIs there more

See it's a chance

We've gotta take

Cause I believeThat we canMake this intoSomethingThat will lastLast foreverForever

Do you ever thinkWhen you're all alone

All that we can beWhere this thing can go

Am I crazyOr falling in love

Is it really justAnother crush

Do you catch a breath

When I look at you

Are you holding back

Like the way you do

'Cause I'm trying,trying to walk away

But I know this crushAin't goin' awayGoin' away

Why do I keep runningFrom the truth

All I ever thinkAbout is you

You got me hypnotized

So mesmerized

And I just got to know

Do you ever thinkWhen you're all alone

All that we can be

Where this can go

Am I crazyOr falling in loveI

s it really justAnother crush

Do you catch a breath
When I look at youAre you holding backLike the way you do'Cause I'm trying, tryin to walk awayBut I know this crushAin't goin' awayGoin' awayGoin' away